AMELIA’S P.O.V

For a moment, Kaden just stood there staring at me and I wondered if I had pushed him too far. Perhaps it was never about me being ready, maybe he wasn’t ready to be with me after everything that happened.


I felt so incredibly stupid and attempted to turn away from him when he grabbed my chin and forced me to look at him. I didn’t want to but we were like magnets, always drawn to each other and I couldn’t stop myself from staring straight into his eyes.

“I’m only going to say this once so get this straight,” he began slowly. “I don’t ever want to see that fucking look on your face again. The only reason I said nothing is because I was thinking of how much of a bastard I would be if I fucked you right here instead of taking you up into a room.”

I cracked a smile. “I don’t think I can make it upstairs.”


“Me neither.”

The words were barely out of his mouth before he kissed me again. I felt something akin to relief in the center of my chest. It felt good to be able to touch my mate again and to be able to feel him without feeling any form of guilt.


He kissed a path down my neck and shoulders all the while his fingers trailed up the hem of my tank top. His moves were skillful and deliberate, his touch elicited flames over my skin wherever they touched and when he pulled back to take my shirt off, I didn’t protest. I lifted my hands with no complaints.

“You’re fucking gorgeous,” Kaden whispered, his fingers tracing the curve of my tits. “You are so perfect.”

His thumb brushed my already hard nipple and a small moan slipped out of me. “You’re teasing.”

“I’m trying to take my time with you,” he corrected before wrapping his lips around my nipple.

I felt the warmth of his mouth all the way to my core and I had to shut my eyes as the pleasure hit me. One hand cupped my other breast, his fingers tweaking my nipple as his teeth lightly grazed over my skin.

His free hand trailed down my back and to my thigh, spreading me wide open as his fingers danced over my aching core.

“Kaden, please,” I managed out. I needed to feel him right there, I needed his hands on me, I needed him inside of me.

I wasn’t sure if it was the plea in my tone of his own inability to wait but his hands moved to the waistband of my shorts and within seconds, it was on the floor with the rest of his clothes. It didn’t skip my attention that I was completely naked and he was clothed but it ceased to matter the moment he trailed a finger up my slit.

I gripped the edge of the counter for dear life trying to keep whatever parts of my sanity were left intact. He pushed his finger in a little before pulling it back out and lifting that finger to my lips. It was almost second nature to wrap my lips around it and suck.

“I haven’t tasted you in so long, I need to-”

A memory flashed behind my eyes at his words and I froze. I tried to hide it but Kaden was always perceptive, especially when it came to me. He ceased all movements and found my eyes. I tried to look away from him, tried to hide the embarrassment in my eyes but he wasn’t having it.

“Tell me what happened just now.”

“It doesn’t matter,” I tried to brush it off but he scoffed.

“You froze, Amelia, talk to me.”

I swallowed before speaking, not knowing if I was ruining the moment or not. “He did something similar when I was with him. It was on the table and he- I tried everything to discourage him. I told him I didn’t like to do it but he was adamant and I couldn’t-”

I trailed off with a sigh.

“I’m sorry, I know I’m ruining everything with-”

“You ruined nothing,” he assured me, his fingers brushing my hair out of my face. “You don’t ever have to apologize for things like this. I’m not going to get mad at you when this isn’t your fault.”

He kissed me on the lips, much softer this time.

“We have two options, I can put your clothes back on and we can do something fun like watch a movie,” he began, “or I can get you off with my fingers and we go watch a movie.”

I debated both options for a minute before shaking my head. “I don’t want either.”

“Then tell me what you want and I’ll make it happen.”

“I want your mouth on me.”

He stilled. “Amelia, I don’t want you to do it because you feel like you have to-”

“I want him out,” I told Kaden. “I want him out of my head and my life. He doesn’t get to dictate things for me. I want to be able to do this with you and not remember him. I want you to take the memory away.”

I was shocked I managed to say it all without stuttering but the look of pure pride on Kaden’s face made everything worth it. It was the first time I had acknowledged that Blake did something to me, that he occupied a part of me and I didn’t want that anymore.

“If you’re sure.”

I nodded. “I am.”

I watched as Kaden got on his knees in front of the counter and spread my legs wide. There was no way I could mistake him for Blake, not when he was so different. He was careful with me, he handled me like I was something precious that he didn’t want to hurt.

He bared me open to him with his fingers and with his eyes on mine, he sucked my clit into his mouth.

My eyes screwed shut in pleasure but Kaden stopped.

“Look at me,” he ordered and I managed to force my eyes open. “I want your eyes on me the entire time. I need you to know whose mouth is on your pussy, do you understand?” I nodded and he grinned. “Good girl.”