Lucien woke up in the morning and sat up on the bed, rubbing his forehead he looked at the naked woman next to him. He watched her naked body for a while and clenched his jaws as he remembered Arabella's creamy white legs yesterday. Then his mind started to show him their first time, both of them were virgins. She looked innocent and pure as she looked at him while he was doing it.

"Fuck!"


Lucien cursed under his breath and threw away Arabella's images from his head as he covered Milena's body with the quilt and got up from the bed. He walked into the washroom and grabbed a shower. Then coming out of it, he entered the dressing room and changed into clothes.

After he was done, he looked at Milena who was still peacefully sleeping. His heart softened and he walked towards her and kissed her forehead before leaving the room. He walked downstairs and stopped in front of his sister who was looking at him with raised eyebrows. His heart clenched seeing her looking at him like that. He really loved his sister but she hates him because he got together with Milena instead of Arabella.

"So you're marrying the bitch huh?" she asked.


"Watch your language! She's your sister-in-law" he growled and walked past her angrily.

He hated when his sister talked badly about Milena. She was his mate and he didn't like when people talked to her like that. Then suddenly he remembered what Rowan said to him that day, he called Milena a corpse-like whore. His heart filled with anger remembering it.


"My sister-in-law is Arabella. Not your fake bitch!"

His sister said as she walked away. Lucien stopped and looked at her as she walked away. Fake bitch? Fake bitch was not Milena, Arabella was the fucking fake bitch. Clenching his jaws along with his muscles, he walked out of the house.

He walked through the way to the pack house, as the alpha of their pack, he had to deal with every single thing which was happening and now he got news about rogues. So he wanted to talk with his warriors. While he was walking, he saw something which made his heart freeze.

He subconsciously stopped and looked at Arabella who was in the courtyard of Rowan's house, she was watering the flower plants. Lucien watched her, she was wearing a man's shirt and it was obvious that she was wearing Rowan's clothes. Her hair was tied into a messy bun revealing her creamy white neck and collarbones. Because the shirt was too big for her, Lucien could see her smooth skin.

Clenching his jaws he stayed there not knowing how to retract his gaze from her. She looked gorgeous and alive. Suddenly, she raised her head and looked at him. Their eyes met and they looked at each other for a while. For some unknown reason, he expected her to smile at him like she did every time they met.

No matter how he pushed her away, she always smiled at him as soon as she saw. But the smile she always gave him was not there, she didn't smile at him. She just looked at him for a while and lowered her head before turning and walking towards the house. He didn't miss any of her movements, his eyes were glued to her and at the same time Rowan walked towards the door and smiled at her.

Lucien immediately looked at Arabella and saw she was smiling at him too. He could only see her side profile but he saw how gorgeous the smile she gave Rowan. His heart clenched and his fists curled to balls seeing them.

His wolf's possessive growl made him want to go to Rowan and rip his head apart. Then she walked into the house without even looking back at him, she acted as if he was something invisible. After she walked into the house, Rowan looked at him emotionlessly. Lucien felt anger bubbling inside of him seeing Rowan shirtless. Only black pants were on him. His mind started to show dirty pictures of them together but he forced them back not wanting to think about it.

'Did they sleep together?'

'Did he see her without clothes? Did he touch her smooth body?'

Countless questions surged into his mind looking at Rowan. Then Rowan walked into the house and closed the door completely shutting his view. A sarcastic chuckle escaped from him as he walked away ignoring the fact that his heart was scared and didn't like to see them together.

His mind was filled with the way she looked at him yesterday. Pain, hurt and helplessness were in her eyes. She was hurt after hearing what he told her and how he talked to her. He really didn't mean to hurt her like that but he was fucking angry and lost his sanity.

"Lucien.. We will stay together no matter what, right? You will never leave me right?"

His mind started to repeat a voice of a teenage girl, even if he couldn't remember the pictures of the memory, he heard the voices in his head. Her voice was really pleasant and he loved to hear it.

"I won't Bella, I promised you before and I'm promising you again. I will not leave you and we will always stay together no matter what!"

It was his voice this time, it was a promise he had given her when they were teenagers. Lucien's heart felt someone was clutching it so tightly. He didn't know when he promised her those things and he couldn't remember. His head was aching and he felt there were so many memories struggling to break free.

"How many promises did I make?" he asked himself.

He didn't know that he had promised her that he wouldn't leave her, but now he had left her and one promise was broken without mercy. He didn't know how many promises he made and how many of them were already broken by him. His whole mind was a mess with the thoughts of her and her voices in his head.

Is he forgetting something? Or was it just a mirage? No matter how hard he ran after the memories in his mind, he would never meet them and he would never be able to see his memories which he had with Arabella. She was completely fading from his life while Milena was replacing her. He didn't understand it and he didn't know how to find it.

He felt that something was not right with him, even if she said she was his mate, he cannot feel it and he just doesn't feel anything special about her. No scent, no mate bond and no love. He had no love for her anymore. He knew that he loved her so much when they were together but the love he had for her was gone and replaced with disgust and hatred.

He couldn't believe his own heart, how can someone stop loving their lover whom they had loved for years? He felt like he was in a maze with a mirage. He tried but he couldn't. He wanted but he failed to have.

"Am I under an illusion?" Lucien again asked himself as he let out a deep sigh and stopped in front of the pack house.

He chuckled at rubbed his forehead because of his stupid thoughts, he didn't mind and he didn't care. He loved Milena and that's it, how can he be with someone when his mate was there? As a man, he would never hurt his mate and he would never hurt the woman he loved. And Milena was them both, his lover and his mate, not Arabella. Arabella was just a liar who wanted to be the luna.

So he will never have a fake Luna, only his true mate can be his luna and he will only mark his true mate as his wife and it will always be Milena not Arabella. A fake woman like Arabella doesn't deserve anything. So he won't give a fuck about her, she can stay with a loser like Rowan.

But deep inside of his heart, no matter how he forced himself to ignore Arabella, he couldn't do it because of some unknown reason which his heart always wanted to find.