Nadia's POV



'I have to go now." Kael breaks the silence. We both have been staring at ourselves in the dark, idly passing time each one in his head, lacking words to say. 'Mission not accomplished, but I could not have had it any better." He sounds honest and genuine enough, it's the first in a very long while. I usually have my self esteem torn down and trampled upon than built up, especially not by such a handsome man with Alpha blood running in his veins.

'Thank you." it's the only sentence my muddles up senses could form. It might not be the greatest night of my life, maybe I've had less chaotic or more orgasmic nights that could actually trump this, but as far as I can remember now, it's the happiest I've felt in such a long while.

I feel such joy that no amount of fingerings from Landon could afford me. The sex with Landon is perfect, as wonderful as they say where the Moon Goddess lives is, but it still does not make me feel more worthy or valued. Kael truly made me feel all that even though it probably was not in the best of ways we met, and we did not end up in cloud nine on each other's naked bodies, but I felt truly seen for what I was.


While I am grateful that I had someone to talk to on this chaotic day, thank Moon Goddess, I'm more grateful that I never get to see him again, and maybe by some stroke of fortune, we do not remember ourselves well enough for recognition when next we cross paths.

'That'll be all." He gives a courtesy nod and turns his back on me. 'By the way, never mind anything, don't tell him shit. You do not know me, you never saw me, I do not even exist as far as you are concerned." Turning around sharply, he gives a look that seeks confirmation for if I heard what he said.


'I can't even hear who's talking. Did you hear who?" I asked playfully, looking in blank directions, assuring him of the ‘fact' that I never saw or came across him.

We both finally leave in opposite directions, not saying one more word to each other.

The house is dark and gloomy when I get back. Clearly a tell tale that Landon was not yet back as he would have lit the place up, probably with soft slow music in the background.

'I guess it's just you and I, Tyla." I've barely spoken to Tyla since I met Kael, and I'm sure as the jealous monkey she is, she would have taken some sort of offense. Plus the fact that we both do not feel well after being cheated on by Landon and his wolf, would also make her less responsive and maybe a little annoyed at me.

'Why don't we just leave him already." Her voice sounds weak in my head. I'm also hurt, and in pain. Being with Kael took that away momentarily. Being in this house now, that is as dark as I feel makes all the feelings I had been pushing away rush back with full force, raw and undiluted.

'Baby girl," I started, with the aim of cajoling her to continue as I have been doing. Maybe I think I'm talking to her, but I'm also talking to myself, giving myself reasons to stay in whatever this is called. 'You know it does not work like that. If it was that simple maybe I would have left, just maybe. I would have run far away, away from every and anyone here, everyone who has ever hurt me, hurt us, you and I, to somewhere peaceful and sane, somewhere we can be ourselves."

I barely finished my little pep talk before the tears started streaming down my tired face. It starts in little peppery drops and later becomes a full swing hurt party. Just broken me and my broken wolf, alone in the dark, while our mate get blown off by a lowly poor slave.

'Please tell me you would not let this happen to us ever again." Kyla, what's to force a promise out of me. I saw it coming. I was always cool with going with the flow, it clearly does not mean she is. I wonder how we both ended up as complements of each other even though we both are polar opposites.

'You know I can't." I say between soft sobs. As much as I want to blame and curse Landon, Kyla is also making me feel like I have a hand in what I have going on with me. Like leaving Landon was the straight up solution to all my problems, past and present. 'Landon is the only cover, the only protection I have in this wicked world. Without him we probably would have died off."

'Don't give me that crap." Kyla's screaming in my head makes a soft gasp escape my mouth. I was not expecting her to be this harsh and rigid.

'I'm trying to do the best for you. Don't speak to me like that! I'm trying to keep my voice low but I really can't help screaming. This whole circus is running me mad.

Talia has her perfect life with Vance her fated mate and is living the best life a she-wolf could ever dream of, Vance who was irritate ld after our encounter on their wedding night loathes and detests me and only accommodates me solely for being a member of the pack even though we have such dirty history. Landon who unfortunately is my fated mate treats me worse than ordinary pack members treat their mates. I look the most unkempt of all the titled wolves wives, even the gammas wife has more respect and voice.

The last thing I want is my own wolf turning against me. There is not much I can bear beyond that.

I hear footsteps approaching, Landon is probably here already. I don't know how I want him to meet me, but I suddenly feel the urge to wipe my face and look like I had not been sobbing over my unfortunate lot in life.

The door creaks open and I can tell by the towering frame that its Landon for sure. That very instant, I wished the spirit of the Moon Goddess could posses me for a while and let me met out vengeance on this cheating bastard I am going to be stuck with for my entire lifetime.

'Hey." He says like he doesn't know what has happened.

I stay silent, not for lack of words to say, but because I want to die.