"Because I liked knowing the fact that there was someone out there who actually liked knowing everything about me" he quotes the note

"I'm sorry I never said anything but after I figured out the note was from you, I started hiding a secret of my own."


"Care to share?"

"I liked you too, Flynn"

"I- wait what?" My head explodes "why'd you never say anything?" "Why'd you never say anything?" He repeats my question


"Oh come on, you were Carson Davis I couldn't just blurt out I liked you in high school, there were at

least 10 laws against that"


"Exactly, it was so confusing because after you I never liked any other guys, you were it." "What about now? Do you still feel the same way?"

"You answer first"

"I never stopped technically"

Carson moves closer, panicking I look down at my cup, still inching towards me he brings his head down very close to mine "can I kiss you?"

"Yes please" I answer a little too quick bring my head up, smirking he closes in on the space left between us and I shut my eyes as I feel his lips on mine. His soft lips start to kiss mine and I completely sink, reaching my free hand I run my fingers through his hair and against his

face. My legs begin to shake feeling the sensation in my knees and I don't know if he could tell because the next thing I knew I'm being lifted up and he sits me down on the counter. Ditching the mug we start to heat up never breaking for air, his hands run up and down my thighs as he's standing between them.

It was all too perfect so of course, it had to be ruined, my phone starts to ring causing him to stop "I'm sorry" I take it out of my pocket "it's my mom" I say before answering "yes?"

"Where the hell are you Flynn?"

"I'm with Carson checking out the car" I lie making a face to Carson "I'll be there soon" hanging up I get off the counter gulping "that was uh" how do I comment on what just happened

"Yeah" he chuckles "do you have to go?" "Sadly"

"Come on I'll take you"

"But you can come with me it's the only way I'll survive this"

"I would but I have to be at my parent's in an hour" I frown "but I can come over for a little bit after dinner"

"That would be amazing"

"Okay." Driving back to my house I stand in front prepared for the worst.

—

It's been hours since I've been home now and I'm completely hating it "how's being gay in college?" Is what I've been asked about 30 times tonight, I sit in a corner with a bottle of vodka wishing Carson was here already.

"Hey" I look up from the floor and see Carson smiling looking down at me "When'd you get here?!"

"Just now your mom let me in. What's going on?" He comes to me sitting on the floor next to me

"They're driving me crazy! I get judged for not making anything, for never having time to come home, for being single. You know my dad said I'm still single because I'm still gay? God who says things that?! And oh my god don't get me started on the stupid mistletoes they have hanging everywhere because it's soooo cute when stupid Tamara" my sister "kisses her stupid husband."

"Are you drunk?"

"No!" I'm literally holding a bottle of vodka "yes" I whine laying my head on his shoulder "Why don't we go for a walk? Get you out of here for a little bit"

"Sure let's do that"

Carson helps me up and sees the bottle still in my hand "leave that"

"Right of course" I put it down. While everyone is distracted we sneak out, making it out successfully we laugh "it's so nice and quiet out

here." The cold air sobers me up a little but I'm not complaining anything is better than being accosted in there. "I'm sorry if I'm ruining your Christmas" I turn to Carson who's walking next to me

"Don't be you're not ruining anything, just glad I could be here for you" "Where was this Carson in high school?"

"Deep in the closet for you"

"I can't believe we wasted all that time being scared, think if we told each other the truth we'd make it?"

"I don't know no one ever really knows with these things. That letter really changed a lot for me and I blame myself all the time for letting you move away without even saying a word"

"Don't blame yourself I did the same thing" "Yeah but you wrote the letter"

"Anonymously, it could have been from anyone" "I'm glad it was from you"

"Carson Davis you sure know the right things to say"

Smiling he stops walking taking my hand, pulling me closer he wraps his arms around my waist "Flynn Shay I can't wait to say everything I've been holding in the last 4 years" leaning his head in I meet his lips halfway. Of course in the cold street, the only thing that could warm me up was a kiss from this man's lips.

I'm getting to live this fantasy of what high school should have been like, but this is so much better Carson Davis is all mine now.