Feeling myself about to cry I cover my face taking a deep breath "this was a mistake" I whisper "What was?"

"This" I turn around pointing to us "me kissing you, you coming to my house telling me you want to be with me. I knew it was all wrong"


"Silas, we had such a good day yesterday, what happened?"

"You lied to me!" He looks at me confused "I've been making you sick to your stomach since the moment I kissed you, and instead of staying away you just made it worse"

"What are you-"


"Abby told me you called her saying you weren't feeling good and that you've been throwing up all weekend. So, tell me it's me and we'll end this because as much as I want to feel good about us, Trevor, it's making my stomach turn too."

He sighs "I don't know what it is Sy, but I promise you don't make me sick, it's just I can't... it's hard to-" his sentence is cut short trying to find the words


"Fathom us being together"

"Exactly and I want to try, I do, but the more I kiss you the harder it gets" "Why did you keep kissing me if it was so hard for you?"

"I was so mad at you that I said a lot of awful things I didn't mean I didn't know how else to get you

to forgive me."

"You want me to forgive you?"

"Yes... I called you selfish and a hypocrite I'm sorry."

"Trevor, you have nothing to apologize for, I never expected you to be ok with what happened. I just didn't know how else to tell you how I felt."

"How about actually telling me?" he laughs, "Sy if you were honest with me we would've figured it out together, I would've never stopped being your friend."

"Then let's start over"

He smiles "what? What do you mean?"

"Trevor I'm in love with you, I have been for a long time and I know telling you might jeopardize our friendship but I don't want to keep any secrets from you."

"I... am not surprised, I mean have you looked at me?" We both laugh. "But seriously if you tell me what to do for us to fix this I'm game"

"You're amazing" I smile "You too."

School ends and Trevor and I walk home together which takes a little long so we decide to talk some

more "were you actually going to have sex with me if I didn't stop it?" "Honestly yes"

"Why would you do that?" I laugh He shrugs "I'm dedicated"

"Maybe I should've kept my mouth shut and let it happen, that's probably what I needed to get you out of my system"

"Yeah well it's too late you rejected me." We continue to walk and he says "since we're ok now, will you promise you'll stop trying to sabotage my relationships?"

"Yes I promise"

"Thank you" we finally get to my house and we both see Paris sitting on the steps of her porch. She looks over at us and smiles waving, I wave back. Trevor turns to me "do you mind if-"

"Go"

"You sure?" "Yes I'll be ok"

"Thanks, Sy" he runs over talking to her.

Going inside my house my mom greets me from the kitchen "hey honey!" I walk in on her cooking "Hi" I smile

"Hey smiley face, how was your day?"

"It was good."

"Why aren't you here yet?"

"I'm a few miles away mom! And what's the hurry everyone doesn't get there till later anyways" "The sooner you're here the better" better for who? I hate coming home because all I get are piles of

questions about my life in college, and not how are your grades or are you eating? Nope, I get who

are you sleeping with? And how's the security at your dorm? Do they just let anyone in and out? I'm sick of it, I wouldn't get these questions if I were straight "what's that sound?" My mom asks on speaker

"My life ending" I whisper "What?"

"It's just the engine it's been making noises since the highway but I'm almost there so no worries." She finally hangs up and I'm alone again for another 30 minutes until that's all gone.

It's not that I hate my family it's just that I can't stand them especially on Christmas, I'm back a whole month and tonight I get to be bombarded by stupid questions. The only way I'm going to get through this is with a crate of vod- "wha-" smoke starts to come out of the front of the car as the engine makes a clunking sound "no no no please don't do this" the car slows down. "This isn't happening" I sigh calling my mom

"Where are you?" "Hit a slight snag" "It's the car isn't it?"

"Don't give me that know it all tone mom, my car's a piece of shit I know" "Who's fault is that Flynn? Text me where you are I'll call a tow truck"

"Thanks" I hang up "who's fault is that Flynn?" I mimic her after hanging up. Getting out of the car I look around at the town I left 2 years ago, god this place held me back from so much. I continue to look around standing by the car waiting.

Being gay here was limiting and high school was hell, well except- "Flynn?" I hear my name and turn around "Flynn Shay"

"Carson wow hi!" Carson Davis the greatest thing to walk planet earth "What are you doing back in town?