"I'm your friend too Silas or at least I want to be, and any friend will tell you to take your chance with the guy you like. With the exception of not doing anything you don't want to" I nod "Trevor is a great guy I've honestly never met anyone like him, and what he's doing is amazing. A lot of people like to give up on each other, him not giving up has to mean something." It means everything

"You're right, I don't need to freak out"


"Exactly just breathe and Trevor will take care of you"

"He will, won't he?" I can't help the smile on my face asking that question "Yeah"

"Thanks for talking to me"


"Anytime Sy" she smiles then goes back in her house.

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Next morning I open my eyes waking up to find Trevor laying next to me with a grin, "what the hell!" I sit up.

"Sorry didn't mean to scare you, your mom let me in when she was leaving" "What are you doing here so early?"

He sits up "what do you think? Shower, get dressed, and meet me downstairs"

"Ohkay..." with excitement he jumps out my bed practically leaping to the door disappearing into the hall. What the hell indeed.

Getting up I do as he says and walk down the steps to find him waiting in front of the kitchen entrance "are you ready?"

"For what?"

"Part one of our special day" he takes my hand pulling me into the kitchen "Breakfast, waffles courtesy of the waffle place on the way here, freshly squeezed orange juice courtesy of Florida Natural... I think. I slaved all morning getting these so I hope you like it" he smiles

Spending the day with Trevor he takes me to a movie, we have dinner and now we're back home. Sitting on my couch Trevor and I are kissing, his lips feel so good "today was great" I comment as we

caress each other

"It's not over yet, let's go upstairs" "Or... we could wait"

"You want to wait?"

"I've wanted this with you for a long time Trev I want to take my time, you know?" "I don't mind waiting"

"Thank you." We stay on the couch and watch a movie, laying in my lap Trevor falls asleep as I run my fingers through his hair. He looks so soft and peaceful it makes my heart ache, is it possible to love someone too much?

Making it to school the next day Trevor and I part ways after our first period, on my way to class as the hall clears I see "Abby?" Trevor's sister walks down the hall towards me

"Hey" she rushes closer "What are you doing here?"

"Looking for Trevor, he called saying he wasn't feeling well"

"What?" I was with him this morning and he was fine

"Yeah he's been sick all weekend, throwing up and everything, I thought he just had a bad hangover but on Saturday he was practically green. Maybe it's just a bug" she shrugs. He's sick?

"Oh I didn't know he was sick, he should be in class by now" "Ok I'll text him" she walks away.

Why is he sick? It can't be the hangover, he didn't seem sick to me. He smiled all day yesterday, and we fell asleep together. How could he have been sick that whole time? I walk into class confused, barely paying attention I wait for the sound of the bell and leave first.

Running around the halls I try to avoid Trevor as I find Paris. "Are you busy right now?" "Is it lunch yet?" I shake my head no "then no. What's up?"

"Yesterday Trevor and I had an amazing day" we start to walk "but I just ran into his sister and she told me he's been sick since Friday night."

"Sick?" She asks confused

"Yes throwing up, since I met him in his backyard, to him coming to my house telling me he wants to be with me. He was sick! Did he seem sick to you?"

"No he was fine, we've talked he's better he said so" oh my god it's me.

"We came to school together, we kissed in his car and he held my hand. So why would he call his sister and tell her that he's sick right after he saw me?"

"Wait, Silas, that's a weird connection to make" "It's me Paris! I'm making him sick"

"That's crazy" she chuckles

"I really don't think so because if an ounce of him actually wanted to be with me he would've said so all the years we've been friends."

"I don't know what to tell you it's weird he's sick because he didn't look it to us, but it cannot possible be because of you. No one makes someone sick enough to throw up." I guess I do.

I'm not gonna be ok till I talk to Trevor...

I make you sick? What does that make me?

A stupid fool.

Should I go to lunch? Or should I run home and hide? Everyone heads to the cafeteria and I stand there feeling like I'm trying to talk myself off a ledge.

Feeling a hand take mine I'm pulled through the crowds down the hallway, my eyes catch Trevor who takes me to an empty classroom.

"Trevor" he walks towards me and gently kisses my lips, bringing his hand around my hips he holds me closer as I try to pull away. I'm not trying hard because my lips are still wrapped around his, I love him too much to end this. He's not sick he's kissing me... wait, he's kissing me "Trevor" I moan his name, not how I meant for that to come out

"Hmm?"

Pinned to a desk his clothes are balled in my hands, he kisses me like someone who wants to so why would he hate this so much? "Trevor I love you" I pull away staring into his eyes

He smiles "I love you too" his eyes mean it! I'm so confused. I wish I believed him "what's wrong?" I take his hands off of me walking away.