Let's see how Friday has gone so far... I avoided riding to school with Elliot, because last night was a nightmare that actually happened, and his text messages I've been ignoring, he's probably mad at me. I don't blame him, if I'm this good at dodging my own boyfriend something must be wrong with me, right?

After informing Maisie of last night's failed attempt, she did not shy away from the I told you so's. "Listen I get it" she goes on as I stand behind her while she's in her locker, "I was coming off strong yesterday so if that had anything to do with it-"


"It didn't"

"All right, so how'd it happen?" LIE LUCKY! "It was... not good"

She turns to me "yeah I get that, but how did it happen?"


"Nothing really happened, we talked and decided to take a few days to see how we feel," she stares at me after the verbal bullshit ends.

"All right" she shuts her locker and smiles "All right?"


"Yeah, you'll just try again, right?" "Right! We definitely will."

My day pretty much ends after that because now I was avoiding 2 people, as soon as the bell rang I fled. Now all I have to do is unlock my door and I'm home free for the rest of the day.

How fucked up would it have been if I opened my door and Elliot was standing right there? With my parents next to him? and they're all staring at me holding the douche thing.

But thank god it's just me, I walk in dropping my bag and shutting the door. How am I getting time alone? My parents never let me do things alone! And now I get the house all to myself? It's like they're in on this.

My phone rings stopping me in my tracks and I pull it from my pocket. Honey Pool calling, that's Elliot's name in my phone. I think it's safe to answer him now I'm home, "three o'clock already, Am I right?"

"I've been waiting by my car? Where are you?" "Oh" right I was ignoring him, "I'm home I walked" "You did? Why didn't you tell me?"

"I thought you'd head right to work, I'm sorry"

"It's ok I do have to go to work just wanted to make sure you got home safe." "Wow thank you"

"You're welcome" he chuckles, "I'll talk to you later?"

"Yeah I have to go learn how to douche anyway" oh Lucky, "I shouldn't have said that." "Lucky it's o-"

"Ok bye" I quickly hang up. I am doing great.

After spending the rest of my day learning how to douche, all I can say now is thank god for the internet, and the Douche Master Two Thousand.

In a couple of hours Elliot is going to be out of work, then he'll call me. Do I say 'yeah come over I know how to douche now?' Or 'babe let's just try again tomorrow.' I think I can keep pushing this back until it never happens, maybe Elliot won't even notice.

There's another person I can go to about this, my sister is great in this department, I never let her nature-loving ass fool me, she gets more guys than anyone I know. "Your room looks nice" I compliment shortly after she answers my video chat"

"Thanks its a cabin,"

"Fancy," I try looking around from the view of her computer desk "How's it being home alone?"

"It's..." I trail off thinking about the question, if everyone was still here yesterday could've been avoided.

"Uh oh" My sister reacts, "you were excited two days ago"

"I still am, being alone is great it's just being alone with Elliot I'm worried about."

"The boyfriend" she smiles leaning close to her camera, "tell me more."

Taking a deep breath "ok so we're basically trying to get to the next step, right? And for some odd reason I'm having problems with that."

"He's pushing you to have sex?"

"No listen to me, I want to have sex with him but at the same time it's not just having sex, it's me losing my virginity. I'm gonna be so bad at it" I already am

"How do you know that? Did Elliot say you'd be bad at it?"

Shaking my head "no he's being very supportive which should be great but I'm ruining it."

"Lucky as your big sister it is my responsibility to tell you that you react like this with everything, not just having sex. Coming out to mom and dad, anytime you're tasked with public speaking, and a few months ago when you got too scared to tell them you had a boyfriend. You react so drastically and after it happens you're left thinking, what was the point of me freaking out so bad?" My sister reads me like a synopsis on the back of a book.

"So I should just calm down?"

"That's honestly easier said than done, especially for you"

"Then what would you suggest?" I need someone to tell me because I obviously do not know, before she could answer the doorbell goes off. Checking the time I make sure I still have a couple more hours left until I have to talk to Elliot, "be right back" I drop my computer on the couch and walk to the door.

Opening it the door swings to reveal Maisie, "surprise!" She grins "May, what are you doing here?"

"I come bearing gifts" she pulls a bottle of vodka and orange juice from her bag. "And my sacred wisdom"