Elliot

Here's the thing, what you're about to see isn't all that I care about. I'm actually smart and care about real things, but I have a boyfriend now and that means I have to care about that too. Elliot was a pleasant surprise but no one tells you what happens after the story of how they fall in love, I NEEDED MORE!


"Put me in charge of this pleeease!" My friend Maisie begs as we're walking down the hall and I tell her

"You want to be in charge of me losing my virginity to Elliot?" I look at her "Yes! Lucky, please I can do this" it's weird she's asking me this, right?

"Maisie" I stop walking "what?" She turns to me "how can you possibly be in charge of that!"


"You don't know what to do, you're a virgin" she whispers looking around to make sure no one hears "I, on the other hand, am not." She stands next to me and looks up "just picture it" her arm makes it's way around my shoulders, "me in your ear guiding you step by step,

easing the nerves, and setting the mood."


"I'm gonna unpicture that because that's basically you listening to Elliot and I have sex." She moves her arm "I don't need guidance, I need..." I look around and whisper "a condom."

"He's not bringing condoms?"

"I don't know!" I continue to walk and she follows "it's been four months and neither of us established who would be doing what, so I'm a little confused."

"You guys didn't talk about it?" Maisie asks confused

"Nope! Elliot's cool so I wanted to be cool, but being too cool always lead to us heavily making out and never really talking about the big stuff..."

"Like who'd be doing what when you guys are having sex?" "Exactly."

"Then how do you even know you're ready?" That's a good question, Maisie

"He's the one trust me" it's easy to just say when you know you know, but to mean it is a different thing. "And there's no pressure" that's a lie I feel nothing but pressure, they're all coming from me though Elliot's making sure he's not putting any on. "I want this I just didn't expect it to be like this"

"I know you say no pressure Lucky, but I'm sensing pressure and this is why you need me" the bell rings, "when is this happening?"

I stare at the digital clock on the wall in the hall as it empties, before I can even answer Maisie my phone rings. "Right now" I show her my phone screen as Elliot calls.

"Right now?!" Her eyes grow "Lucky are you serious?"

"I'm not not serious." Bringing the phone to my ear I answer Elliot's call "hey"

"Good morning, Luck" ugh he sounds like such a man, the deepness of his voice saying my name is unexplainable, you should just get it.

"Since you vaguely mentioned that we should skip after first period today, I thought you might want to know that I am currently walking to my car."

"Yes good I'll meet you there" "I'll be waiting."

After hanging up I look at Maisie "RIGHT FUCKING NOW?!"

"You're late to class," I say shoving my phone in my bag "I'm not ready- you're not ready!" She panics

"I know but this was my bright idea, so I'm going through with it"

"Oh god I'm late but I want to tell you that you should probably not be doing this. I'm so conflicted!" "Go to class, I'm gonna go meet him. If this is meant to happen it'll happen"

"That's- that's a good philosophy" I know it's not but it's all I've got right now. "Will you at least call me after so I can regret it with you,"

"Yes, I promise we will regret this together."

I want Elliot I know that much, and for 4 months I have paced myself for as much as I could which meant just kissing, heavy petting, and yes blowjobs. But sex just seemed impossible for us, because of school, little to no alone time, and his job.

My house is going to be empty for the next few days so maybe I suggested for the hell of it we should skip and go there. Nothing in that screamed sex, but the subject has been weighing heavily on my mind.

"Ready to give me more information as to why we're skipping?" Elliot asks as soon as he sees me Stopping close I shut my eyes kissing him, our hands touch each other simultaneously, with his on

my hips and mine against his chest.

Pulling away "was that enough information?"

"Although very nice and always necessary, no, no it was not." He smiles as I step away "what's going on?"

"So my sister's at a farmer's retreat for the next week, and my parents are in New Hampshire until Monday. That's four days very alone, very unattended"

"Oh" he matches my grin "that means?" I nod "and you're sure?" I nod again "because you know if you're not Luck, that's ok."

"Look at me" I grab his arms pulling him close as I wrap them around me, "I'm ready, I'm so ready that we could do this right here."

"Right here?" I nod and he chuckles "in the school parking lot?" "Yes right here right now" I kiss him.

After a minute he pulls away "ok but what happened to this being important? I don't want this to not feel important for you"

"It still is" I reply as we stand close between the cars in the student lot, "but you my amazing boyfriend are also important and that deserves to be celebrated."

"Celebrating in the form of sex?" He stares at me with eyes like a bright pool of honey, his face and lips just pulls me in so I rest my lips on his. I kiss him again as a reminder that we both want this, not just me. "Your mouth is saying a lot without speaking any actual words," he says in the midst of us kissing and I laugh

"Then listen to the words I'm not saying, Elliot"

Pulling away, Elliot unlocks his car opening the passenger door for me, "all right let's go" he waits for me to get in then shuts it.