It's been a week since Daddy died until now I still don't expect everything to be this fast.
　　I looked at Mommy who was next to Daddy's grave, she was just silent as she caressed his tombstone. "Imissyou" she said then started sobbing.
　　It hurts me to see Mommy so weak but I can do nothing because even I am not ready for all this. I approached her and hugged her tightly.

　　I want to cry but I have to stand up for mommy. I am the only one she can draw strength from in this situation.
　　"I said not still but why ? Why did he still leave me immediately?" she said while sobbing.
　　I tightened my hug with her then kissed her on the forehead. "I'm still here mom. Iloveyou."
　　We stayed for a few more minutes before deciding to leave. We both didn't want to leave but we knew we had to get on with our lives without Daddy.
　　"Do you want mommy at home to stop me first?" I asked as we got into the car.
　　She just smiled at me before shaking. "I'll be fine. I also need to train myself.”

　　I let out a deep sigh before looking at her seriously. "Don't push me away mom."
　　She immediately turned to me and touched my face. "I'm not pushing you away and I will never do that. It's just that I need this too. I hope you understand that you have your own family now."
　　Family?
　　I just smiled in my mind. "Okay I understand. Call me when you need something." then I hugged her.

　　She also reciprocated with a hug and then let go. She stroked my face as if she was memorizing it. "Always be strong princess. Your Daddy and I love you very much."
　　I just nodded and hugged her again.
　　MOMMY sent me to her driver in Andrei's condo.. A quiet house opened up for me when I entered. It looks like he hasn't come home from work yet.
　　I dropped myself on the sofa then leaned on it. I closed my eyes to rest, less than a few seconds I heard the door open.
　　His very familiar scent immediately penetrated my nose. Almost four days without Daddy before he returned from America, he apologized to me and mommy because it was too late before the news reached him. He said with his hectic schedule he could no longer understand his phone.
　　I smiled bitterly. Yeah, hectic schedule with his girl.
　　"You just arrived?" he asked.
　　I slowly opened my eyes then looked in his direction. He's in the kitchen, maybe preparing to cook.
　　"Yes" my simple answer.
　　I could see his simple sigh then looked at me. "Are we okay?" he hesitated to ask.
　　Are we okay?
　　Should not?
　　Should yes?
　　I just smiled at him then stood up. "Sure why not?" I said then took my bag.
　　"I'll just change" I said goodbye I did not wait for his response. I just went straight to our room.
　　In recent days while Daddy was on the hill we did not talk. I don't know if he is really just giving me space or if he really has no intention of talking to me.
　　I took off my clothes and went into the bathroom. I dipped on the tub.
　　Only now do I feel relaxed again. I didn't realize that I had fallen asleep, I just woke up when I felt someone wiping my body.
　　Out of drowsiness and fatigue I just let it go until drowsiness carried me away again.
　　I woke up feeling like something was digging my stomach so I quickly got up and ran to the bathroom.
　　"Arggh!" I vomit.
　　I almost burst into tears as I felt nauseous. My body is cold and I am also dizzy.
　　"Fvck! Are you okay?" he muttered as he stroked my back.
　　I continue to nauseate even though I feel like I have nothing to release.
　　"FVCK! I'll take you to the hospital, maybe your cold came in when you were soaking" he said quickly and left if I hadn't stopped him.
　　I want to laugh at him if I am not just fainting. I could feel sweat dripping down my face down my neck. He must have noticed that too so he quickly snatched the towel next to me and wiped my face.
　　"I just need rest" I barely manage to say.
　　He just nodded then lifted me up and laid me down on the bed again. He rubbed my forehead to see if I had a fever or what. He looked at me seriously as if he was solving a puzzle.
　　"Are you sure you only need rest?" he made sure to ask and stroked my face. He put my runaway hair next to my ear.
　　I just nodded and avoided looking.
　　"You should eat. You didn't eat last night wait me here I'll just heat the food." he no longer waited for my answer and went straight to the show.
　　I immediately grabbed my stomach at the same time as my tears flowed.
　　"Please baby, don't be obvious to your Daddy."
　　Yes, I'm pregnant. I found out that on the very day when Daddy disappeared. It's funny to think but maybe the saying is true that when something is lost someone comes.
　　"Sorry baby. Maybe this is not the right time for me to let your Daddy know. We need to know what your Daddy plans for."
　　A few minutes later he entered the room again with the food.
　　FVCK! IT STINKS.
　　I wanted to cover my nose and run to the bathroom again but I stopped that. I don't know if he knows anything when it comes to pregnancy but those who are careful are still good.
　　I held my breath in tears.
　　"Are you okay?" he asked worriedly to me.
　　I'm overwhelmed. I looked at what he was carrying, adobo. Damn, it's just but my nose really don't want it.
　　Baby we should eat. Your Daddy cooked that.
　　"Don’t you like?" he frowned at the question, perhaps he realized that I had a bad opinion of the adobo he cooked.
　　He slowly pulled his hand away from me. "Do you want to eat something?" he asked me.
　　I just shook my head even though I really thought I wanted to eat something.
　　Maybe I can still endure?
　　I saw him sigh then came out. I was waiting for him to come back but a few minutes later he was still gone so I decided to go out too.
　　Surprisingly, I did not notice that. I just caught him cooking in the kitchen.
　　Isn't there food?
　　"Sit. It's over too." he said when he noticed me.
　　I quietly followed him. I looked around to find the adobo but I never saw it again.
　　My stomach began to swell when I smelled what he was cooking. In less than a minute the food he had prepared was in front of me.
　　Porridge.
　　I did not wait for him to take care of me. I voluntarily spooned some rice and started eating. I really enjoyed the food so I didn't realize that he was watching me. I averted my eyes before pouring the last spoonful of food into my mouth.
　　"Eat more." he said then brought the rice to me.
　　My face warmed with embarrassment. He thought maybe I was greedy. I just thought I was three times over.
　　Ghosh baby you are greedy.
　　Since I did not act, he voluntarily put my plate of rice on it. "Go eat" he said.
　　I wanted to look at him but he might notice me so I just continued eating as he wanted.
　　"Later we will go to the hospital. I want to make sure you are all right."
　　I let go of the cutlery I was holding and looked at him. He was just looking at me seriously so I didn't know what was going on in his mind.
　　"I-I'm okay. T-like you said maybe my cold just entered" I want to blame myself for my stutter.
　　I was shocked because he was already beside me and pulled me upright.
　　"Damn it baby." he whispered then I was converted and locked in his chest.
　　I don't know if it's my heart or his heart that makes me feel fast.
　　"Imissyou" he whispered again then kissed my forehead.
　　Well now I know. It's my heart.