It was past two o'clock when I woke up feeling heavy. My vision is blurred while my whole body hurts like hell especially my lower region.
　　I roamed my eyes around the room. Gradually, frustration overtake my feelings when I did not see the person I was expecting.
　　What can I expect? It all happened because of lust. We were just carried away by the heat of our body, nothing more nothing less.

　　"AHH!" I yelled as I tried to sit up and fell back again on the bed.
　　Fvck! I didn't knew it would hurt like hell. I didn't insist moving anymore, I just let myself lied down.
　　Seems it's my bad luck today. I think I will also have a flu because my muscles really throb in pain.
　　I smiled bitterly. "And my husband was not by my side after what happened to us," I whispered softly.
　　I want to cry but it is my fault. I let my body be slaved from his touch and kisses.
　　How should I deal with him after this?

　　Stop thinking Cassandra, I am freaking sure he doesn't make a big deal of what happened. He left you here, didn't he?
　　Then I remembered what happen before I fell asleep.
　　"Yeah, maybe he's with her now, doing the same thing," I said, annoyed.
　　I just tried to ignore what was running through my mind and rested. I need more rest than to think of everything which can stress me out. I gently wrapped my body in the blanket because of the extreme cold I was feeling.

　　It's been a few minutes long since I closed my eyes and then my phone rang.
　　I could not open my eyes due to its excessive weight so I just dug where it was making noise. When I finally got the cp I just answered the caller without looking on it.
　　"H-hello?" I said exhaustedly.
　　Because of my unwell state, I don't even understand what the caller was saying. I just let go of the phone and let the darkness ate my vision.
　　I woke up in a white room. My vision is still blurred but I can conclude that I am at a hospital.
　　"Bro she's awake.." I heard someone said.
　　"Baby are you okay?" a familiar voice spoke.
　　I felt like hallucinating. I closed my eyes again and the darkness consumed me up again.
　　When I woke up again I felt a little better. My lower body still hurts but my eyesight has improved so I was shocked when I saw Andrei sitting while sleeping next to my hospital bed. He was still wearing office clothes so I knew he had not come home yet.
　　"Andrei..." I called softly then patted his face lightly.
　　Slowly his eyes widened. He quickly stood up and touched my shoulder, arm and hand.
　　"What ?! Where are you hurting? I'll call the nurse," he said one after another and seemed to leave if I hadn't just hold him.
　　"Stop. I'm okay, well not totally okay but I feel a little better." I convinced him.
　　He sighed as if a thorn had pulled out from his chest then sat down again, he held my hand so I was a little confused.
　　"I'm sorry," he said sincerely so I stared at him.
　　"For?" I asked.
　　Sorry because he fvck me?
　　"If it weren't for my stupidity you wouldn't be hospitalized," he said, guilty.
　　My eyebrow raised automatically. "What do you mean? It's normal for someone to get sick Andrei. You don't have to blame yourself."
　　He hesitated to look at me and lowered his gaze in the end.
　　"It's because I took your virginity baby. That's why you are here confined with laceration."
　　"Damn it! I should have listened to you that you can't handle my size."
　　"W-wait what? Laceration what is that?" I asked. Is that a serious illness? Was that an aids?
　　Andrei sighed first.
　　"Let's just say that your pet down there was very hurt because of my huge size that even the inside of it wounded,” he explained.
　　I covered my face with shame.
　　Gosh! I was hospitalized because of that? I got sick because of that? Argh!
　　He removed my hand from my face. He looked at me seriously then put my escaped hair on the side of my ear. "The doctor said you need to rest for about a week. You must not move first to get well quickly." he said then squeezed my hand.
　　I only answered with a nod.
　　"I'll buy our food first, I know you haven't eaten yet," he said then I smiled sparingly.
　　Don't be like that to me. I might forget that someone already owns you.
　　"Do not you have a job?" I asked then averted my eyes.
　　"My secretary will take care of that, for now I will take care of you first until you are okay," he uttered.
　　I just gave him a fake smile and then averted his eyes again.
　　Yeah right, he has time now to care for you because you are sick Cassandra. Once you are healed you will not be able to reach him in the room again..
　　Fvck Cassandra. You said that dropdead dropdead thing but you moaned in just one caress.
　　Few days passed, I was almost just lying down and sit only when I eat. The doctor said that I can go home and get well there but Andrei prefers to stay so someone can take care of me in case there is an emergency.
　　My first day in the hospital was almost hell, I cried every time I peed because of the pain. Fortunately, as the day progresses, you gradually decrease.
　　Andrei did not go to work for a week, he only worked on his laptop in case he had any proposals to approve. He was also the one who took care of my family business. I found out that he went to our company when I woke up without him to take care of what I had to take care of at that time.
　　I also noticed that he'll get out of the room every time his lover called.
　　How did I know that thing? Simply put, he answers almost everyone who calls him right in front of me but when she's the one who called he comes out.
　　We also didn't talk about what happened between the two of us. Maybe that means we should forget what happened.
　　The day came and I am fine so I was discharge from the hospital. The next day we went straight to the office, like he said he helped me with things I needed to learn.
　　Daddy did not know that laceration was the reason why I was hospitalized, Andrei just told them I had a flu. It was in my favor so my parents would not expect something from the two of us.
　　"Yah! You're such a useless friend, you didn't even called me after your wedding then now you will excuse that you got sick, "Ayesha muttered directly.
　　We are here today at the former cafe we went to.
　　"Sorry," I said as I tried to make myself cute.
　　She just tsk-ed and looked at me seriously.
　　"So how's your honeymoon?"
　　I spit out all the coffee from my mouth at that moment.
　　"What the fvck Cass. Such a gross." Ayesha complained while wiping her face.
　　"Fvck! don't even ask like that," I said, annoyed.
　　I tried to forget what happened, but my demon friend reminded me.
　　Her eyes widened as she pointed at me.
　　"What?" I groaned then wiped my lips.
　　"Oh my gosh. Something happened, so was it delicious? Well for sure you really enjoyed it. AHAHAH!"
　　"You’re really a fvcking demon. What the hell comes out from your mouth,” I hissed.
　　"Wait, you were hospitalized after your wedding. Hmmmm, don't tell me you were hospitalized because you couldn't handle his pet?"
　　I could feel the warmness on my face at what my friend was saying. Well yes her instinct is really good.
　　"Oh my gosh! Is it really huge?! Or your p*ssy just really small. HAHAHA!"
　　I gave her a death glare so even though she wanted to laugh she manage to hide it.
　　"Okay, okay seriously. So your relationship is going well now. Something happened to you that means you are developing." she lined up long.
　　I was silent for a moment then gave her a fake smile.
　　"What the fvck? Spill it."
　　I shrugged.
　　"Something happened to us, yes, but it ends there. Remember he had a lover, right?" I said.
　　"So? You're married with him, you have the rights," she uttered.
　　The bitterness spread even more in my system.
　　"Should I really called it a right? "I asked before looking outside.
　　She did not say a word.
　　"I have no rights because between the two of us I was not the first. Most of all we are married but we have no relationship while them, they have."
　　"After I got out of the hospital, he slept in the guest room. We also don't talk much if not necessary so I think he draws a line right? "
　　Ayesha was just shaken her head by what I told her.
　　"Do you love him?"
　　I was stunned by Ayesha's question.
　　Love? What is it?
　　"I don't think so. Maybe it's all just body heat. He's a man of course no man will reject a woman," I reasoned even though in my heart I am also confused.