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The Healing Souls
A Healing Heart
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[Gemma]Before bed, I went with Carmen to her closet to get something to sleep in. I texted Ben to let him know I found my mate. He replied with his congratulations and that he and Mike would bring my car and some clothes tomorrow. I knew he would have Darla gather the clothing for me. He wouldn’t feel right about going through my drawers. I quickly messaged Darla with the clothes I wanted. She congratulated me, as well. I knew my cousin and his mate were always happy for me. Finally, I messaged Ashley to let her know I finally found him. She didn’t reply, but I figured she would later. “So, do you want something ѕexy or something simple?” Carmen asked when I entered her closet. “A little of both? I don’t think he’s ready to have a physical relationship, but I want him to know what I have to offer. Is this okay with you and Rock? I didn’t think to ask before saying I was staying.” “It’s fine. You found your mate. That is one of the best moments ever. Did you find out why he ran away? Did he try to reject you?” “No…. He asked if I was disappointed. How could I ever be disappointed in my mate? He’s perfect for me. I don’t need someone with a commanding presence and I do need someone who will listen to me and be there for me before anyone else. I love him and I loved him from the moment I saw him,” I replied. “He’s still hurt, mentally. I don’t know how long it will take to fix, but I think giving him your mark and letting him mark you will make it easier for him. Once he has irrefutable proof that you won’t give him up, I think he’ll be more secure,” Carmen said. I nodded. “I agree. I’m not going to force it on him. You said I would need to teach my mate how to love. The goddess wouldn’t have given him to me if I couldn’t help him heal inside and out. I saw him favoring his leg a little. Is it still giving him trouble?” I asked. “It twinges when he works it too much. I never realized how long it takes for omegas to heal. Having you here will help. I was worried about him overworking himself when he started work with Rock. Now, I feel better. What can I do to help you?” I thought about it. What did I need to help my mate? How could my friend do more than she already had? She saved his life and helped him heal until I could be here with him. Silently, I kicked myself for passing the job of bringing clothes for Austin to Mike and Beth. I could have been here weeks ago, but I had been invited to go to another pack and I thought there was a chance my mate would be there. If I had only realized he was closer than I thought…. My mate needed me and I wasn’t there for him. I didn’t know he needed me there to help him heal. I didn’t even know he was injured. This was not the best start to our relationship. I would fix it, though. “Take care of him for me when I can’t be here. That’s all I can ask. Maybe let me come here on weekends. I can come Friday nights and stay until Monday morning. The commute to the pack lands is difficult, so I won’t ask about staying on weekdays. I don’t know what sort of help anyone can be beyond what you’ve already done. Carmen, you saved my mate’s life. How can I ask for more?” I answered tearfully. “Don’t cry, Gem. He’s alive and he’s safe. That’s all that matters. The goddess guided us to him so we could save him for you,” Carmen told me. “Do you really think the goddess took time out of looking after major world events just to save my mate?” “I do. The goddess is always watching and she wants us to be happy. Trust me, Gem. She was looking out for Austin. She wants you and him to be happy together. What do you think of this outfit?” I looked at the pajamas she was holding out. The top was lavender and the shorts had a floral pattern on a darker purple background. They looked sleek and satiny. I smiled. “It’s perfect. I bet it feels nice.” “Of course it does. I don’t wear anything that doesn’t,” she giggled. “Are you sure I can borrow it?” “Yeah, Rock’s horny, so I won’t be sleeping in anything. He has no qualms with tearing clothes if he determines it’s the fastest way to get me out of them. I know better than to wear something like this on a night like tonight.”I laughed. That sounded like them. I was amused by the casual way she talked about her mate ripping off her clothes. Sure, we had talked about it before, but it got to the point where she wasn’t talking about it in a dreamy or excited fashion. I could tell it was still something she enjoyed though. Carmen loved that her mate found her irresistible. She led me to Austin’s room and said goodnight to me. I went in and undressed, put on the sleepwear she gave me, and sat on the bed. My nerves were on fire. I told Austin we could just sleep, but the thought of being in the same bed as him made me a mix of excited and nervous. When he entered the room, I was again overwhelmed by how handsome he was. Austin was exactly my type. I liked that he didn’t tower over me, but he was still taller than most omega males. He was maybe three or four inches taller than me, so around 5’10” or 5’11”. His hair was golden blond and he had the most gorgeous, soulful eyes. The way he looked at me was a mix of pleasure and pain. Carmen had told me in a phone call that Austin didn’t think he deserved love and that he had some messed up ideas about what sort of mate would accept him. He didn’t reject me right away, so I was grateful for that. She told me she had made him promise to give his mate a chance to love him. I was glad he was taking her advice. Austin didn’t say anything, but he grabbed something from the dresser drawer and went to the attached bathroom, closing the door behind him. He must have been nervous. I understood and wouldn’t push it too much. I got under the blankets but stayed sitting up in bed. When Austin returned, I couldn’t help but lick my lips at the sight of him. He was only wearing the pajama pants I picked out for him. His body was as gorgeous as the rest of him. Though he wasn’t super muscular, the fine muscles that were natural to any shifter were defined and he had that V-shape that dipped into his pants and drew my attention lower. I could tell he liked what he saw, too. He came over, got into the bed next to me, and then turned off the light. I moved his arm and cuddled into the curve of his body. Gently, I traced over his abs. It was as if I couldn’t resist touching my mate.Austin shivered under my touch, then turned toward me and kissed me. Our first kiss had been sweet, he didn’t seem to know what to do and stayed still as I kissed him. This time, he was gentle in his exploration of my mouth, almost timid. As the kiss went on, it became more ardent and passionate. It was as if our bodies were acting on their own. I pressed myself against him and he touched me reverently. I explored him, too. After I grabbed him through his pants, though, he told me he wasn’t ready yet. I assured him that we could take it slow. I didn’t want to overwhelm him while he was still wrapping his head around the relationship. Drifting off to sleep with my Austin was the best feeling in my life. I never felt as whole and safe as I did sleeping in his arms. It led to some of the best dreams I’d ever had. -I was dreaming of a beautiful life for the two of us. Austin was with me in the pack lands. He accepted us when he realized how different Hallowed Moon was. I loved the idea of having him live with me. It was safer for him in the pack than it was in the collective. We were happy and I knew our real lives would be just like that. The dream shifted and we went from being in our house to being in the park where my friends and I would go eat when we wanted alone time away from the pack. Austin pinned me to the blanket we brought. I felt his groin pressing against me as he kissed me and I kissed him back. It all felt so real. His kisses trailed over my jaw and down to my neck. I moved my head to the side as he started kissing and licking my marking spot. I moaned at all the stimulation. When his teeth pierced my skin there was a little pain, but a feeling of completion radiated through my soul. Then, he gasped and got off me. “I’m sorry. Goddess, I’m so sorry, Gemma.”That woke me up because it sounded like it was really being said, not in the dream, but from outside of the dream. I opened my eyes and looked around groggily. The light of the moon was the only light in the room. Austin was sitting on the bed as far from me as he could get without leaving the bed. I rubbed my eyes. I didn’t understand. What was the most confusing for me, though, was the feeling of sorrow and fear that ran through me. Those didn’t feel like my feelings. I raised my hand to my shoulder and felt a mark there. Austin marked me while I was sleeping? No, he wouldn’t have done that. Austin hadn’t decided about what was going to happen with us. He wouldn’t be apologizing if he’d done it on purpose. Though I never imagined my marking would be an accident, I didn’t mind it. Something in him loved me so much that it marked me as soon as he wasn’t there to stop it. I wondered if it was his wolf. “Please forgive me, Gemma. You can reject me if you want. I took something from you and there’s nothing I can do to fix it,” he whispered. I got up and crawled toward him. He jumped when I touched him, but stilled when I didn’t pull away. I kept going until I was straddling his lap and holding his face between my hands. Looking into his eyes, I kissed him gently. “You are my mate, Austin. I was never disappointed. I wasn’t waiting for you to reject me. Frankly, I never planned to give you up. This wasn’t something you did on purpose to take away my choice. I love you and I wanted your mark. Let me show you how much I wanted it,” I murmured between kisses. He whimpered slightly and I continued kissing him. I felt him getting hard under me and began grinding against him as I kissed him. Letting go of his face, I started kissing down to where I would mark him. I kissed and sucked on the spot as I rubbed his erection. His breathing sped up and I bit, breaking his skin and making my mark. Austin was always mine and I would never let him go. He gasped as our bond solidified. Pulling back, I looked into his eyes again. They were wide with surprise. I knew he could feel what I was feeling now. He could feel how much I loved him and how happy I was that he was my mate. “Mine,” I whispered, then kissed him again. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight as he kissed me desperately. I held him to me and matched his energy in our kiss. He could finally know what I felt for him from the moment I’d first seen him. When the kiss ended, we were both panting and hanging on to each other like we were afraid the other would disappear. I’d felt all of his emotions as we kissed. His amazement, his shock, and his joy were all rooted deep inside me. “Mine?” he asked softly. “Always,” I replied. “You really love me…. I’ve never felt anything like this. Is this really what love feels like? It’s like something is gripping my heart and making it swell at the same time.” “Yes, that’s what love feels like to me. It’s what loving you feels like. The gripping is because of how much I hurt for you. The swelling is because of how much I love you and want to take away all of your pain. Will you let me do that, Austin? Can I take away your pain?” He nodded, then kissed me again briefly. “You’re going to heal me no matter what I say, though, aren’t you?” “Of course I am. I’m your mate. That’s what I’m here for. Let’s go back to bed. You need more rest and I need a few more hours before I’m ready to start the day.”I got off of him and we went back to bed. Austin rolled on his side and I faced him. We held hands and kissed a little more. He fell asleep before I did this time. In his sleep, he rolled to his other side. I moved in close behind him, molding my body to press tightly against his, and wrapped an arm around his middle. Spooning my mate, I breathed in his scent. This was a better way to sleep. I would always have his back and he would never feel unsafe again. As I drifted off, I cuddled against him and kissed his shoulder. It may not have been the way I imagined it, but I had my mate and his mark. I couldn’t imagine anything more perfect. I’d have to talk to Ben about taking time off for my heat, which would start in the next week because I had been marked. Neither of us was ready for a pup yet. I couldn’t wait for the time when we were, though. I wanted a little pup that was a mix of me and the man I loved. Our life together would be perfect.