Blair

　　Letter


　　Blair,

　　I love you unconditionally. You're my Bunny. Nothing in this messed up world could ever replace you. That's why I have to do this. Your happiness is worth my life. He makes you happy, Baby. I see it in your eyes everyday.

　　This way we can both be happy. I'll be with my mom and you'll be with that hunk. He'll keep you safe. I'm more than positive.


　　I've done my part as your protector. You've given me more love than I've given you. You're my angel.

　　By the time you've finished reading this, I'll be gone. My heart will be some place else. You'll know where. Let's just hope my gayness isn't attached to my heart.....all jokes!


　　I really love you, Bunny. It hurts me to leave you like this. But it will hurt me more seeing you live on in sadness.

　　Please forgive me. I'll always be with you.

　　- Dale.

　　It has been hours.

　　I sat on the floor re-reading the letter as I sat outside of the surgery room.

　　My heart was torn into a million pieces at this point. I felt like I was losing the both of them.

　　Like neither of them would return to me.

　　A sob left my lips and I pulled my knees to my chest, crying silently.

　　I couldn't lose Dale. He had been everything to me. My father, brother, Bestfriend, Guardian,

　　You name it. He stood up for me when nobody would. All the long, depressing days were over because of him.

　　Yet here we were, on either sides of the door. More tears flowed.

　　My sadness brought me weakness and soon, I was asleep on the hospital floor.

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　　"Miss?" I heard someone call and I felt a slight poke on my arm.

　　I groaned loudly, ready to yell at the person for interrupting my death sleep.

　　"What?" I asked harshly, my voice groggy from sleeping.

　　I opened my eyes and waited for them to adjust in to the bright lights in the hallway of the hospital.

　　"The surgery is done. I'm sorry about your friend. But at least one of them is awake now." The doctor said and my sleepy eyes widened.

　　It's final. Dale's gone. I couldn't stop him.

　　And now Zayn is-

　　"He's...awake?" I asked and he nodded slowly before gesturing for me to walk into the room across the hallway.

　　"Do you want to view the body of your lost one or would you like to see Mr. Santiago?"

　　Do I want to see Dale after that? Would I be able to sleep with him being gone?

　　I shook my thoughts away and snapped back into reality.

　　I ran over to the door he pointed and a tear slipped out just as I opened the door.

　　There, with a million wires attached to him, was a normal looking Lucifer.

　　I walked into the room slowly, feeling as though I was walking on eggshells.

　　One bad move and I'll wake up from this dream.

　　His eyes looked over at me and my heart stopped as I looked at him.

　　His eyes were bright and he looked at me blankly.

　　The room was silent and I tried my best not to break down right then and there.

　　I was an emotional wreck.

　　But everything went out the window when he opened his arms slightly.

　　Just by looking at him, tears started escaping quickly and uncontrollably.

　　I reached to him and first, touched his face, making sure that he was real.

　　"I almost lost you." I whispered softly, more tears falling.

　　His eyes turned a shade darker as he looked at me. His emotionless eyes swirling with unfathomable emotions.

　　He sat up slowly, groaning as he did. But he seemed to be oddly strong for his situation.

　　Then again, it is Lucifer we're talking about here.

　　He sat on the edge of the hospital bed and pulled me closer to him by my hips.

　　Then he wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his face in my stomach.

　　That's when I broke down. I leaned down and placed my head on top of his,

　　Burying my face in his soft hair.

　　More tears slipped as I thought about the reason he was here right now.

　　Dale. His smile and laugh replayed in my head and the way he would look at me when I was sad,

　　I already missed him so much. I couldn't take it anymore.

　　Sobs escaped my mouth and he rubbed my back, trying to soothe me.

　　We stayed like that for a while until he pulled away.

　　His eyes looked into mine and he grabbed my hand, pulling me down to his level.

　　He raised his arm to touch my face but the wires got in the way.

　　"Fucker." He mumbled annoyedly and I laughed slightly at his discomfort.

　　Then I pulled away from him slowly and walked over to the window,

　　My emotions becoming overwhelming as all I could think about was Dale.

　　I was so happy that Zayn was here with me again. But the fact that I couldn't celebrate with Dale,

　　Killed me inside.

　　"I'm sorry, Baby." He told me and I sighed deeply, turning around to face him.

　　"It's not your fault." I replied and he shook his head slightly.

　　He laid down and patted the space next to him. Without any argument I immediately went over and got on the bed.

　　With one hand, he wrapped it around my waist and with the other,

　　He covered his eyes.

　　"I could never do, what he did." He said, brushing some hair out of my face.

　　"I know." I mumbled jokingly and he pinched my side.

　　Then he turned to face me so that we were both laying face to face with eachother.

　　Then he kissed my head before kissing my cheek, my jaw, then finally, my lips.

　　He kissed me. A short kiss. A short, deep kiss.

　　That somehow meant more than intended.

　　When he pulled away, he looked down at me seriously before a slight smile appeared on his face.

　　"I'll make it up to you." He told me and I raised an eyebrow.

　　Then the unexpected happened.