Talia(Isla)'s POV

As I lay stiffly on Ken's bed, how much my life had changed in just a day suddenly hit me. Kael was now dead. And now I have to start a whole new other life with a whole new person.


I really wasn't looking forward to it, but if there's something I've learned by now, it's that we can't change the inevitable. I really just hope I can trust that Moon Goddess knows what she's doing.

'Your hands are warm." Ken said as he grabbed my hand. They sure would be. I was freezing and my body temperature had risen, but there was no way I was going to get warmth from him.

'Really?" I said absent mindedly. I did not want to tell him what was wrong. I knew he wasn't going to chill out of it until he got a reasonable answer.


'What's wrong, babe?" He asked me. I kinda liked that he was all over me, at the same time, it just wasn't the right time. I wonder why I met all these great people when I was fucked up myself.

I don't want to repeat what happened with Kael. I held back for too long. I did not let us both enjoy the bulk of our time together. At the same time, I didn't want to make it seem like I was desperate for another man's attention.


'I don't know what to do." I confessed to him. The lights were on, by my request. 'I'm the fucked up person and I keep dragging everyone down with me." The tears were welling up in my eyes now. 'You saw Kael? I don't want you to be like him." I was painfully blunt, and all I was saying hurt me more than it hurt him.

'It's not your fault that he died." Ken said. I don't know if that was meant to reassure me, but it wasn't. I felt worse. Never in my little word did I think ‘dead' and ‘Kael' would sit in the sane sentence.

'Yeah. I want to believe that too. But I know the truth. I should have protected him." I turned my face the other way. I didn't want to put my burden on Ken. He did not deserve it. I tried to withdraw my hand, but he held on tight.

'You can vent on me. It's what I'm here for." He was stroking the back of my hand now.

'You'd hate me." I said to him. I have too much history, I don't know if I want to let it all on him, it's going to be too much, I man, it's already running me mad.

'No I won't." He replied. He sounded so sure of himself but still not sure enough for me to actually tell him. 'I want to know what happened all the while we weren't together." He continued.

'How long was I gone for?" I was Isla now, I'm slowly accepting. Maybe this I the switch I need to be able to enjoy my life. Being Talia wasn't good for me. That I knew.

'Just a little over ten months." He answered immediately. 'The most difficult period of my life." He added.

'I'm sorry if I can't say much." I replied him. 'There not so much in one's memory after a rebirth." I added.

I felt his hands tighten. Maybe he thinks I was alive somewhere all the while. There's no proof to that beyond Kael, and now he's dead.

I'm going to have to learn all about Isla. Now I know what the game is. I'm living my life through hers. I really just hope she does not have enemies. I have no memory of her life, and I don't know how to, or not to, mingle.

'You still look as beautiful, maybe even more." Ken said. I appreciated the fact that he changed the subject. I wasn't really keen on those history lessons tonight.

'Thank you." I replied to him.

'What do you want to talk about?" He asked me. I didn't see that coming. I knew he was restless, but part of me wished he'd just sleep it off. Apparently, that wasn't happening.

'I don't know. My mind is a mess, wouldn't want to bother you with it." I replied to him.

'What if that's exactly what I want?" He asked.

'Last I remember, you said we should sleep." I replied, changing the subject. I've had a long day, but I was still very far from being sleepy.

'We both know that's not happening yet. How about we bond before sleep eventually catches up with us?" I hated how he sounded reasonable. Something about it kept getting to me.

My hand was still in his and he was now slowly closing the distance between us. As much as I don't want to admit it, I liked it. And since Kara wasn't already growling in defiance in my head, it meant that some way, she was feeling his wolf too, and that was such a relief. I still have ugly memories of how she kept nagging me about Kael and how she never connected with him.

'What do you want to know?" I asked him.

'Do you still love me?" He asked like he had been waiting all his life to.

'What if I don't want to give an answer to that?" I replied him. I still don't know how he and Isla parted, until I do, I'm not committing to anything totally. I saw his cheek bone sink, but things are really out of my control.

'It's totally fine." it wasn't, we both knew it, he was just being mature.

'What next?" I asked him trying to take his mind off it.

'Did you ever have sex with him?" I don't know why he's so bent on having all the answers that would hurt him. I could not keep evading all of it. If that was what he wanted, so be it. I just hope he'd be able to sleep well tonight.

'Yes." For the first time, he let my hand go I knew I was probably irritating him already, so I took my hand off completely. He pulled it back immediately.

'I'm sorry." He said.

'I'm sorry too." I replied him.

'How many times?" He asked me. That was one think I know would break him.

'What if I held that back? For your own good." I replied.

It only got him more curious and on his insistence, I told him the truth. We'd been at it, but not for long, it's far less than a month since I decided to be that was with Kael, poor Kael.