Talia's POV

Kael has been gone for only a few minutes. I regretted turning my back on him when he said he could not take me along. Going there too couldn't exactly have been easy on him. If there was anything he was excited about, it definitely was that he was going to be seeing his brother.


He walked out after waiting seconds for me to return his ‘I love you.'. The silence was loud and uncomfortable and I really almost said it back before he gave up and turned the door open. Hopefully, I get to tell him how sorry I am when he gets back. For the first time in forever, I'm really alone here in Kael's attamot to have a life away from packs and civilisation, a surprisingly beautiful cottage stashed away in heaven knows where.

At that moment, I made a mental note to ask him about how he came about the cottage. It could not have been accidental or something he came upon when he got evicted, unofficially, from his pack.

While it stung me for treating Kael like shit, I felt even worse thinking about how Kara was holding up. I've had very little use for her, hence the almost non existent interaction. Life with Kael had been purely human, raw with beautiful emotions. It still was no excuse.


'Hey pretty," I called out to her in my head. Regardless of how shitty I had been treating her, she should actually be feeling a lot better, I have bee feeling a lot better so that definitely was safe to assume.

'You've been a real shitty friend recently." Was her caustic yet funny response. I loved how she was the dramatic one between us both, and also very wholesome. I love Kara with everything in me.


'I know," I begged her, 'and I'm sorry. Anything I could do to make up for that?" I instantly regretted as soon as I did. I forgot Kara was always the one with the stupidest ideas between us both.

I could here her giggling like a little girl, I'm sure she'd have skipped about if I let her.

'Let's talk about that later." She said instead. It sounded like she had more pressing things to talk about. Kara would never have passed up and opportunity like that. I have faint memories of her forcing me to have' hot wolf sex' like she crudely put it. Vance was such a beautiful man. I could also remember how excited he was to have it. I also remember his clause for it was that we had it on the rooftop of his mansion, which also doubles as the pack palace.

I remember how bad it hurt when Kara gave her victory welp in my head on hearing it. Alex too was only too tired if human sex. As soon as we got to the top of the house, Kara tore out of me in excitement at seeing Alex in all his glory. Her moans must have torn through Moonstone that night, but very little fucks could've been given at that point.

'What is it that is on your mind?" I asked her, hoping for the best, and bracing myself for the worst.

'Well," She started put a bit hesitant, 'Don't you think something might be up with Kael?" She asked suggestively. If Kara wasn't right on my head, I'd have put my habds in my ears to block her sound out. I did want to hear shit about him, definitely not now. I was alone and already scared enough as it stood. I just wanted time to go by as fast as it could do we'd get to the part where I jumped in him and told him that I loved him and it hurt to see him go anywhere without me, that I missed him, and I overthought all the while. So he'd lift me and carry me in one arm, while he toys with my nose or lips, saying how he knew I was a big baby and a scaredy cat too.

'What now?" I was totally uninterested. I'm not going to deny that my attention was spiked, I just could not afford for anything or anyone to ruin my fairytale.

'I'm just saying, if it seems too good to be true, it probably is." Kara sounded like the voice of reason she never really was. Acting all grown and smart, and everything I wasn't.

'Come on!" I was exhausted with questioning the good things in my life. I was already exhausted enough fighting the intrusive thoughts that kept saying there were things I didn't want to entertain at this moment. I know myself, my emotions are going to be all over the place once I start thinking about things I shouldn't.

'Why would he ever even choose you? What do you think you are to him? Have you ever wondered what would happen when he's tired of you? When you're no longer the young and beautiful Talia he now craves for?" She kept on unrelentingly. That's how she was when she was already too sure about something.

'What's your aim?" I decided it was just too dumb to fight her. It's the same old Kara, there's no point taking the same old approach that never worked. I'd just tell her I'd think about it so she does not keep bugging me about it. I know if she's pushed to the wall, she could even do stupid things.

'I'm just looking out for you?" She said, patronizingly. I wasn't going to argue anything with her. There was no point.

'By trying to take away my only source of happiness?" I asked, pissed and irritated. She could be really frustrating sometimes, annoying even. I knew what she wanted, and it was valid. It's obvious that Kael wasn't my mate and so she couldn't feel any connection to him, but I loved Kael too much to want to give all that up for her.

I felt it was selfish of her, really selfish. It's the one time I've been genuinely happy since forever.

Kara was going to make me go mad if I didn't stop what she wanted to do. I know Kael and I certainly aren't perfect, but I don't think I've ever felt this way in a really long time. And if Kara wasn't ever going to warm up to the idea, I feel sorry for her that she'd never get to know his wolf like I know him. As of now, I can't imagine coping without him. He was definitely a godsend, and it was obvious.

I wanted to play over all the good memories with him while waiting for him to get back, not have to debate why I love him with my restless wolf. All the mornings I woke up to him staring at me like I was his favorite snack. Or the mornings he made food and woke me up to breakfast in bed. How he made butterflies swarm in my belly when I heard his voice. How he instinctively drew me closer to him at night. How he doesn't know that I know one of the reasons he's so eager to be by my side all night is because he's stopped having his nightmares.

How he snuggled extra close for some reasons. How he worshipped and adored me in the shower, and still always insisted we took our showers together. He made making me comfortable his life mission and how good he really was at it.

In all honesty, angels like him shouldn't be flying down here with me. I kinda always felt he was too good for me, but it wasn't just chance that brought us together, so I probably deserved him.

'Could he really love you if you hate yourself?" Kara was determined to unnerve me, and in all honesty, she was succeeding. 'Do you even really know how all these work?" She kept on reeling in the questions like she had a whole back of stuff she could say that would hurt me.

'It's good for you that you know all these, Kara, I want to remain in my delusion." It's probably the first time in forever that I'm sticking my foot down on something Kara didn't want. She's really going to have to be alright.

'Sometimes it feels. Like I don't know you anymore." She said, like I let her down. I could not even care. It's been me, not her, all the time, feeling all the pain, all the hurt, physically and mentally.

'That isn't my problem, I promise you." I shot back at her. I was hurt and she was unrelenting. To think that that's someone who says she's looking after me. I'd rather be left alone to Kael's whims and caprices.

'When you realize that in this world, it's just us, and that things aren't as they were, maybe you'd be more careful with your heart." It sounded like a parting note and I was only too happy to be relieved of her nagging pessimism. Life was hard enough without her.

Finally she gave up on the subject and just went quiet. I'm sure it would be one of those moments where we ghost ourselves till something eventually makes us snap out of it.

At least I'm grateful that it took time, I waste going to be bored for too long before he walks in. A couple of minutes later, I started feeling really lonely. The type of loneliness that makes the stupidest things in my head make sense.

The first thing I did was strip bare and take a good look at my new body in Kael's bathroom mirror. I liked what I was seeing, it isn't the me I remember, but this could work. I looked like a real vixen, fiercely sexy.

Then I remembered that one thing I've always wanted to see, Kael's journal. I remember itching to see what he was writing all the times he was furiously scribbling away oblivious of my presence.