Talia's POV




'What do you mean by ‘you do', Kael?" I asked him.

'This is a transaction." He reiterated. 'A very bloody transaction."

'I'm hurt." I said to Kael.


'You are? Do you know how long I've dealt with so many emotions? For how long I've been hurt, still I'm hurt, dealing with all these." I hate having to watch him lose his guard with me.

'I'm sorry Kael, I never meant for any of this to happen." I apologized. 'I literally do not even know what is going on with me. You are my only help. The only person I have. I hate to be a burden, liability, or pain in the neck."


'It's not your fault." He said looking down. 'I mean, you barely know who you are."

'So why are you angry at me?" I asked him.

'Who said I was?" He looked very perplexed and confused.

'You barely look happy to see me these days. It's the worst I've seen you. It was less bad when you even found out that I'm a fraud of your former love." I started spilling out of control immediately wishing I held my tongue back.

'There's so many ways people express emotions, Talia. Not everything is about you." I don't know whether to feel good or bad about it.

'This is kinda about me. We both know it. There's no need to defend me from my reality." I said, still standing by what I said previously.

'Would you pick a side?" He was really frustrated and angry. At the same time patient and loving. 'You said I was tired of you and in the same breath I'm defending you from your reality. What exactly is it with you?" He asked. I can't blame him. I would be confused too, I confused myself.

'I'm sorry." I barely can keep track of all that flies out of my mouth.

'You don't have to be." He defends me.. 'There's no reason for you to be." He continued.

'Why?" I asked him. ' I'm literally the unfortunate occurrence here."

'How far do you plan to get with all this self-pity and condemnation?" He asked me, looking me in the eyes even though he was standing and I was lying on the side that hurt less.

'Far enough to make you throw me out and do something good for yourself, maybe?" I replied.

'That would never happen, Talia." He assured me. 'You might have to do that on your own. When you are tired and bored of living such simple life with a nobody, you could always walk out the door." He smiled very insincerely.

'I don't want to do this again." I sighed.

'Do what?" He asked.

'Nah. Nope. No I'm not going to say." I replied.

'if these bruises and cuts were not visible, I would have thought you were lying." He said. 'You look too weak for all the drama you are causing." He stared at all my cut and bruises and open wounds.

'I just think there's a lot of stuff we need to iron up between us." I said, soberly.

'And you think now is the time?" He asked, concerned.

'It never would be the right time Kael. We have to keep going at it till hopefully someday we reach a compromise." I replied, cajoling him.

'I don't know how you feel about it." He started. 'But I've never had to process this amount of emotions in such a short time." He was beginning to look away, I guess being honest and all out was never really his thing.

'It's fine to feel certain ways, Kael." I'm really not one to talk, but I definitely am better at expressing myself. Kael would be an emotionless stone left to him.

'It really isn't." He countered. 'You soon are going to figure out who you are, and leave in search of your destiny, because you obviously do not belong with me." He said, sullenly. 'I wish you did." He added.

It felt like the air grew cooler and my body got suddenly hotter. It's too much sincerity it feels like goodbye. I really do not want to have to face him after this. I knew Kael has something for me, hell, I do too.

But the timing and circumstances are rather unfortunate, to cap it all is the fact that we are not mates nor are we fated for each other. So whatever we plan to do would just not be futile and time wasting, but we would be dragging ourselves and our mates through some unnecessary ordeal.

'I used to think one could not feel affection for someone who wasn't their mate." I said, trying to make things less frigid.

'Yeah, me too." He replied. He is beginning to give replies in mono-syllables. I knew he just wanted to disappear and never have to see me anymore.

'Why?" I asked. I hope he gets what I mean. The embarrassment from having to explain what I mean would probably kill me faster than these wounds on my body.

'Why what?" Fuck no! He just did not!

Should I just let it slide or go ahead? I can't even trust my thoughts at this point. I was too weak to do anything smart. Maybe that's my excuse actually. When I do get better, he would be ashamed to bring it up because all these could pass for being in my moment of weakness.

'Why do you feel attracted to me?" immediately I said it, I feel like I heard the answer. Because I'm freaking in his girlfriends body!! Fuck you, Talia!

Please don't answer…

Please don't answer…

I knew he would.

'You mean other than you being in Isla's body?" He asked me.

'Yes." I really did not know where the boldness came from, but thankfully, it did.

'You're delirious, Talia." He said, invalidating all I just said to him

'I've known this since before all this." I pointed to my body, just my whole body. I must look like a lump of sores by now. The only thing still unharmed and unscathed from all I've been through is my jet black hair. I should also check on Kara when I'm done with this brain draining exercise I decided to put myself through

'Just sleep." He threw the blanket over me a little less carelessly that he normally wound. But I saw the regret in his eyes when I whined in pain.