Trevor pt. 2

He's not stopping, why isn't he stopping? Trevor continues to kiss me and I want to enjoy it but something feels wrong, he's not kissing me like someone who wants to. Finally snapping out of it I try to push him off but he refuses it, he fights back keeping his lips on mine.


Shoving him off "what the hell Trevor?" I wipe my lips

Slowly panting "What? This is what you want right?" He moves closer trying to kiss me again "No, it's not!" I push him away. He stares at me but instead of a mad glare he gives me a

disappointing gaze which hurts more than him being mad "Trev I'm sorry." "Don't Silas just don't" he walks away leaving.


If I let him leave that's it for us "Trevor wait!" I follow him outside as he yanks his keys from his pocket "I didn't mean to-"

"You didn't mean to what, Silas? Kiss me?" He turns hissing angrily, too ashamed I don't answer "how long have we been friends?"


"Long..."

"And I've always been ok with who you are, haven't I?!" I nod as he barks at me "so why would you do this to me?"

"Trev I didn't mean to" I try to move closer and explain but he backs up away from me instead

I watch in horror as he puts his hand up stopping me and yelling, "no stop! Stop saying you're sorry! You did it and you meant it! Don't tell me you're sorry. Honestly, what the fuck were you expecting, Sy? For me to magically be 'gay' too?" Looking away as tears gather in my eyes I try not to cry. Invading my personal space he walks over to me and screams, "DID YOU WANT ME TO BE FUCKING GAY?! Is that what you thought would happen?" He scoffs as he sees the tears rolling down my cheeks, "yeah... go ahead and cry, Silas."

"Trevor I'm sorry" I wipe my eyes.

We're both standing in front of my house as he yells at me when we hear Paris's front door and she walks out, just what I needed. "Trevor?

What's going on?" She comes closer to us

"Paris my best friend here called you a piece of shit because he didn't want me going out with you, selfish Silas wants me all to himself" I deserved that. Paris stares at me as the uncontrolable tears continue to stream.

"What happened?" She asks.

"He kissed me" Trevor laughs as if just the sound of the words are too comical to believe, "and for the life of me I cannot understand why you fucking did it!"

"Trevor I..." he holds his left hand out as I'm about to speak, my apology sticks in my throat. "Stop" he shuts me up bitterly glaring at me.

"Trevor, maybe you should let him explain," Paris says trying to help.

"Maybe you should stay out of this" he retorts at Paris. "Silas, do you understand what you did?" He turns to me and I'm afraid to speak

"nod or something!" I nod "Good. So you understand that you ruined a friendship because of what? It's so impossible for you to have a normal friendship with a guy? You fucking hypocrite. You're the one who's always saying guys and girls can't be just friends unless one of them is gay, and look who's doing it now! The gay one." After his rant, we all stand there as he just stares at me disappointed and it all makes my heart ache so much. "God I can't even look at you Sy..." those were his last words.

Paris and I watch him get in his car, after slamming on the wheel a few times he starts the car and speeds away practically leaving tire marks.

Paris stares at me as my eyes are glued to the floor "Silas I'm so sorry."

Sniffling I look up at her trying to stop what little tears I have left "no I uh... I should be apologizing to you, what I said yesterday was not fair and I'm sorry. Sorry, you had to see that." Turning away I walk to my door

"He didn't mean it," she says as I walk up my steps then I turn to her "Trevor loves you, he's just hurt."

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"What did you want to happen?" My mom runs her fingers through my hair as I cry in her lap

"I don't know I didn't expect him to be so mean" I cry "it's like he forgot we were even friends, he was just screaming and Paris... oh god Paris" I continue to sob

"What about Paris?"

"She came outside and he told her what I did then proceeded to calling me selfish."

"I'm sorry honey I know this isn't what you wanted but everything happens for a reason, just give him a few days ok? Trevor loves you"

"I am so tired of hearing that! If he loves me why would he hurt me?"

"I don't know maybe he's hurt too, Sy." He's definitely hurt Trevor has never spoken to me like he did today, not even when we're fighting.

He looked at me like someone who stabbed him in the back. "What are you going to do?" "Kill myself" I sigh sitting up

"That's not funny, Silas!"

"I'm kidding mom" hugging my knees I stare into the distance "I'm going to avoid him and forever hate myself for what I did."

With about 2 hours of sleep in my system, I lie in bed Monday morning afraid to even get out "hey" my mom walks in dressed "how are you feeling?"

"Like a pile of horse poop," she scoffs "Come on I'm making breakfast"

Covering myself I ignore her hand reaching out for me to get up "I just need 5 more minutes."

"All right" I hear her walk away and I uncover myself. How am I supposed to go to school? Half of my classes are with Trevor and knowing him, he'll either skip the ones with me in them or just ignore me till one of us dies. Picking up my phone I stare at the blank screen with false hope, as if he'd text me. Few minutes pass and my mom comes back up "Sy you have to get up kiddo"