"The cut is so deep. Shou-- should I call the doctor?" My voice trembled. As a response he shook his head. I heaved a defeated sigh and applied the ointment on his chin, but he flinched and shoved my hand gently.

"Does it hurt?" I asked but he didn't respond instead kept staring at me. Cautiously, I nursed his wound and put the bandage on his chin.


"I'm really sorry for what I said, I didn't mean it. I shouldn't have said-" I wiped my tears.

"I killed my child." He said blankly, his eyes held the same pain that I saw in his eyes when we were in the hospital.

"You didn't." I wiped his tears. "In fact, you are not responsible for our baby's death. You were not aware of my pregnancy, but I accused you of our baby's death." My heart felt heavy.


"Nature did everything. We can't blame each other. I'm sorry for being cruel to you. I'm so sorry." I hiccupped.

"Shhh." He put his forefinger on my mouth. "It's not your fault, I'm such an ass. Please forgive me." He hugged me, his chin rested on my shoulder.


I rubbed his back up and down slowly, soothing nothing but smoothening words. He looks like a wounded animal and I don't have a mind to push him away. We remained like this for what seemed to an hour.

I looked around the room and recognized that he brought me to his room, but the room looks different than earlier. I can't say exactly how was it before, but it brings something peace inside my heart like I am in my home.

And my eyes landed on the wall where I could see the pictures of me and my daughter. My heart mellowed seeing every picture in his room.

He has a collection of our photos and framed everything neatly on his wall like a treasure and lived his life with our memories.

How a man can love someone this intensely? Unknowingly, a pearl of tears rolled down through my cheeks.

Once again, he proved his love for me is eternal but I'm not ready to accept him. Am I? I need time, I can't give anything right this moment.

"I'm a selfish bitch," I whispered.

"Kayish." I shook his body, but he passed out on my shoulder. Gently, I laid him on the bed and placed the pillow under his head. He is sleeping peacefully like an angel with an open mouth. I removed his shoes followed by his suit and tie.

"Good night." I planted a kiss on his forehead before walking out of the room. "Please take care of him," I asked Rachel who nodded her head sincerely and left his penthouse leaving my heart wandering around him.

*

It's been two days since I last saw him in his penthouse. After that I didn't hear about him, and also he didn't bother to show up in the office.

All the meetings and presentations were postponed, somehow Harith managed to handle our important clients who were looking forward to closing their project on time.

My heart was itching me to call him whereas my brain was pushing that thought at the back of my mind saying me to mind my own business, but I can't simply sit and watch pretending like it's none of my concern.

Truthfully, I'm caring for him and I need to know whether he is okay. The cut on his chin was so deep and I'm afraid that what if it gets infective.

Did he see the doctor? No way in the hell he would do such kind of things in his entire life, especially not after he made his useless mind to punish himself.

He thinks whatever he is doing is correct because he wants to suffer.

Suffer for what?

'Remember you accused him of our baby's dead' my subconscious mind reminded me, and I sighed in defeat.

How badly I wish to retreat my words. I buried my face between my palms as to thinking how I'm going to handle the situation.

Suddenly his wounded face came into my vision and I jerked from my seat. Oh, God!! I rubbed the spot where my heart is pounding heavily. I really hurt his feelings more than I wanted.

Four years, I managed to keep my feelings on its bay, but it came out of the champers where I had buried ever since I first met him in this office unexpectedly.

Somehow, I started to hate him more than before when he treated me like trash. But I realized that jealousy had been controlling his entire body that made him do such damages in our life.

He thought I have a child with another man that is why he showed his arrogant side to us but when he had happened to know about she is ours, his jealousy and anger mixed in the air and flew away out of his sight.

Now he is blaming himself for the death of our child but it's not true. Partially it's my mistake too. When I decided to ignore my doctor's suggestion and travelled to California from London, when she strictly told me to take rest most of all to avoid long time travel, there I made mistake and it cost my baby's life.

If I had considered her words seriously, I wouldn't have lost my child. My both kids would be playing in my arms and I wouldn't have dragged himself into this hell, the hell where he is dying every day.

Sighing defeatedly, I flipped the file one by one until my shift time was over.

"Bye Juliet." I hugged her and walked out of the building then drove my car to my apartment.

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I prepared Claire's favourite snacks apple slices with almond butter along with the orange juice and set them on the table. In the morning Claire rang me and informed me that she and Draco are coming here before they fly back to California to visit dad and mom.