Elsie
I have moved a lot of my things into Kellan’s place, but I am beginning to wonder if it is still what he wants because he seemed distant the last couple of weeks, and when we are together, he seems distracted by other things. I wasn’t sure if it was all in my head or what, but I refused to move the rest of my stuff in until I knew what was going on in his head. If he isn’t ready, he needs to tell me that. I would understand, but if he continues pretending it is what he wants and it turns out he is lying, I will be pissed. I need him to be honest with me.
“I thought you were packing, sweetie?” Cassie asks as she comes home from work.

Usually, when she comes back, I have things lying everything, sorting them into boxes, but I am on the sofa, watching TV and eating ice cream.
I glance up at her, “Nope, not anymore.”
She looks between me and the ice cream, “What’s wrong? You only eat rocky road when you are upset.”
I can hear the concern in her voice, and she comes to sit next to me.
I sigh and set the tub of ice cream down.
“I think Kellan is having doubts about me moving in. Initially, he seemed excited, but recently, he has been distracted and distant. What if he has met someone else?” I whimper.

The thought has crossed my mind more than once. I hate myself for the ideas, but I can’t help it.
“Elsie, I am sure he hasn’t met anyone else. Have you spoken to him about it?” she asks.
“No, because I am worried about the answer,” I reply honestly.
“Elsie, you need to talk to him. Though you need to get the idea out of your head, he has met someone else because he loves you. He is maybe just nervous. “You need to ask him before you move in,” she says softly, squeezing my knee.

“I guess. What if he has changed his mind? Or if he doesn’t want to be with me anymore? I know how hard it is for him to let people close. I thought we had passed that stage, but he went through a lot growing up, and it isn’t just something you can get over.”
I know his past demons still haunt him. It can’t be easy, but I must know where I stand with him. I don’t want to uproot my life and move in with him for him to change his mind.
“There is only one way to find the answers you need.” She encourages.
“I know, and until I know what is going on with him, I am not packing anything else. Don’t worry, though; it won’t affect your move. If he has changed his mind, I will find somewhere smaller that I can afford.” I smile.
I didn’t want to get in the way of her plans because that wouldn’t be fair.
“Don’t worry about me, Elsie. We will work something out, but hopefully, it doesn’t come to that.” She smiles.
“So, how does a girl's night sound? We can dress up and go for dinner and cocktails?” she suggests.
“I would like that,” I answer brightly.
I didn’t have plans, and it would be a good way to take my mind off things. I can talk to Kellan tomorrow.
“Yay! I will get the wine, you get the beauty products out, and we can have a party for two while we get ready.”
“Sounds perfect.”
Cassie always makes me feel better. She takes the ice cream to the kitchen since she is heading that way anyway. I jump up from the sofa and head to her bedroom. She has the bigger room but also has more beauty products than me.
A girl’s night is exactly what I need.
****
Cassie and I stagger into our apartment at two o’clock, singing. It had been a fun night, and we were rather drunk.
“Oops, we must have forgotten to put the lights out.” I giggle.
There is light coming from the living room. Cassie snickers, and we start laughing loudly for no reason. We head into the living room and realise we aren’t alone. Kellan and Barry were sitting on our sofa with raised brows.
Cassie and I looked at each other, “Uh-oh, we're in trouble.” She giggles.
“Why are you two here?” I huff.
Kellan rises to his feet and comes towards me. He places his hand on my hips.
“When my girlfriend calls me three times in a row, then leaves a voice message that makes no sense and decides to ignore me when I try to call back, it worries me,” he says softly.
I roll my eyes at him and pull away, “Oh, so now you notice?” I snap.
Kellan looks at me confused, “What does that mean? Why are you snapping at me?”
I shake my head and stagger towards my bedroom. I slam it behind me. Why did he have to be here and ruin my good mood? I strip down to my underwear and climb into bed. I bring the covers up and ensure my back is to the door.
I hear the bedroom door open only a minute later.
“Elsie, what is wrong? Why are you mad at me?” he asks sadly.
I don’t answer; instead, I act like I am sleeping. I would rather not discuss it while I am wasted.
“Elsie, I know you aren’t sleeping.” He says.
I don’t answer him. He sighs loudly and leaves my bedroom. He will probably go home. I can deal with it tomorrow. I don’t know if I am overreacting or not. I close my eyes and hope for sleep to take over.
Five minutes later, someone comes into the room. I glance over my shoulder and see Kellan, but he isn’t looking at me, so he doesn’t notice. I quickly turn away before he catches me. He climbs into the bed behind me. He slips his arm around me and pulls me back to him. His warm lips kiss my shoulders.
“I don’t know why you are mad at me, angel. I am sorry for whatever I did wrong. I love you.” I whisper.
He really doesn’t know he has been acting off recently. I feel the tears build in my eyes but hold them back. I draw in a deep breath and turn to face him. I don’t say anything and still pretend to be asleep but cuddle into his chest. Yes, I am mad at him, but I always sleep better snuggled into him.
Kellan doesn’t say a word. I’m not sure if he believes I am asleep or if he senses I don’t want to talk. Either way, I am fine because I am not ready to talk. Kellin wraps his arms protectively around me and kisses the top of my head.
Tomorrow we need to talk! We need to get to the bottom of things before making a life-changing decision if we want this to work between us. It wasn’t supposed to be this way. We were supposed to be happy and excited for the next chapter, but now, I have no idea.