Sweet Aphrodite’s POV
The deafening silence is killing me. While we are eating, no one spoke. Every spoon of food is hard to swallow when every time I look at Lennox, I see indifference and coldness. I inhaled sharply then put down the fork and spoon I am holding. I can’t take this anymore.
“Lennox…” I broke the silence.
I waited for him to look at me. But when he did, it's just for a second then he resumed eating again. I feel like crying.
Since he saw the thing on my nape yesterday, he became distant and cold. Even he tries to act normal, I can feel it on my heart. Of course I'll know it when he stopped hugging me which he usually do when I'm busy doing something. I used to his melting stares but now he is avoiding to look at me like it would hurt him. I don’t know why he changed but I think it's because of what he called witch’s seal.
“Do we have a problem?” I asked while my heart is breaking. My tone is almost begging even I tried to speak in normal way.
He didn’t speak. I reached for his hand and before I can even touch it, he raised it to bring the spoon in his mouth. I weakly put my hand on my lap. My eyes sting and the tears are ready to cloud it. I pressed my lips to stop from crying.
“Lennox, please…” I whispered. I can’t keep taking this kind of treatment, it hurts.
He gazed on me and the coldness on his eyes is like an ice piercing through my heart.
“What is it?” So he’s back on calling me by my name, huh? Where are your endearments?
“Are you mad?”
He shook his head then he resumed eating. He never looked at me again like I am not worth even a glance from him.
Although he is giving me a cold treatment, he still helped gathering the used dishes. But he still treated me like I do not exist. I watched his back while he's washing the plates but my heart broke for the nth time when he didn’t even acknowledge my presence.
I left the kitchen quietly and as soon as I entered my room, I let my tears that I’ve been stopping to escape my eyes. I buried my face on the pillow and cried my heart out.
The feeling when you know that you didn’t do anything bad but you are receiving cold treatment is hard. I keep thinking what is the reason why I deserve this. As far as I remember, we were okay before he saw that. What’s wrong with that? Is it bad? Did I choose this? Does it mean that I am a witch? But I am sure I am a human because I’ve never encountered anything supernatural in myself. I’ve been living a normal life until this year and I learned about the existence of creatures other than humans.
And whatever this is, why is he doing this to me? I didn't choose this. It naturally engraved on my nape. If I were to choose, I would never want this especially when it is that painful, I felt like dying. And I want a normal life. I don’t want this. Why is he treating me as if I had a choice?
What now? He doesn’t like me anymore because of this damn witch’s seal on me? What is he gonna do, throw me out the mansion? He should tell it to me then. I’ll talk to him first but if he really doesn’t want me anymore, I won’t push myself to him. All my life, I’ve been looking for that genuine kind of love but I won’t push myself for it.
‘Coz true love shouldn’t be forced. You love someone because you love them. Not because of anything. Not because you were forced or obliged. It should what you really feel, not dictated.
If our relationship is really coming to its end because of this, maybe he doesn’t really love me. And that’s fine. Maybe I would be fine. I hope so.
I decided to go to the park so I can unwind. I can’t stand staying in my room and deep inside, I am waiting for him to come. I will just hurt myself because he wouldn't do that. And luckily, I did not see him on the living room. I’ll just be emotional when that happened.
I sat on the swing then I made it move lightly by pushing my feet on the ground. My eyes automatically closed when the wind passed by. The silence added to my melancholy. It peaceful but there is a pain in my heart. Why do problems keep on intervening? Is it the destiny’s way of making us strong and ready for harder challenges in the future?
I gathered my hair then put it on my shoulder. I opened my eyes when I felt a presence and his pair of blue eyes welcomed me.
“Rage…” I uttered.
He flashed his kind smile then handed me a cup of french fries. I chuckled before I accepted it. He sat on the swing beside me then he proceed on eating his food.
“Long time no see, angel,” he said. “I was walking around and something is pulling me to go here. I am thankful that I followed my instinct. I bought these first before I went here,” he explained then he shrugged his shoulder. He glanced at me with worried eyes. “You look sad.”
I forced a smile to him before I looked at the cup I am holding. I picked few pieces of fries then I shoved it in my mouth. He chuckled when he saw that. I took my time to munch it.
“Hungry, eh?” he asked playfully.
I sighed then shrugged my shoulder. “Maybe stress eating.”
“Hmm… What is it that is stressing you out?”
“Just…” I tried speaking but I can’t find a word to explain it. We glanced on each other then he stood.
“Think how you’re gonna say it. I am just going to buy us some drinks,” he said then he jogged away.
He didn’t even let me speak. I suppressed my smile and I watched him vanishing from my sight. Why is the timing so perfect? He came when I am feeling so down as if the world knows that he could make me feel light effortlessly. Rage calls me angel but I think he is the angel. He is like a light in the darkness.
He handed me a canned juice then he sat on the swing again. I thanked him as I opened it.
“I have a question…” I started after I drank.
“Spill it!”
I inhaled sharply. “You love someone but you learned something about her. It is not about cheating but like, she has connection on something you really hate. What are you gonna do?” I composed then I glanced at him.
His brows furrowed. He pressed his lips when he looks like he is thinking but he let out an awkward smile as he looked at me.
“Can we be more specific?”
I chuckled. For a moment, I looked up and thought of something I can relate it to. My eyes widened when I thought of one.
“Let us just say, you learned that she’s from the family you hate. Is that fine?”
He raised his index finger and it looks like an imaginary light bulb lit up above his head.
“I understand,” he said and made a face of thinking. He stared at nowhere, lost in his thoughts. “If I love her then I discovered that, then I’ll still love her. Love should be unconditional so it won’t really be affected by anything. I love her because I love her. And whatever anger I do have for her family, I could forget it so I won’t lose her. But if it is hurting us…” My heart fell on his last word. It is like a failure that would happen to my relationship with Lennox.
Rage looked at me and he let out a kind smile.
“I’ll gather all the pain that she is feeling so I’ll be the only one hurting. Then her love for me would mend my wounds. So, that’s it. Even it is against the world, I’ll fight for my love, Sweet.”
I looked away to quickly wiped away my tears. I hope Lennox has the same sentiments as him but I understand that we have differences. I looked at him when I thought I already look fine.
“You know a lot,” I chuckled then sighed. “But one thing is for sure, the woman you would love is so lucky.”
His sad smile after hearing what I said bothered me.
"Am I capable of loving if I lost my other half?"
My brows furrowed. “What do you mean?” I asked, confused.
He shook his head then he stood. When he is already in front of me, he grabbed my hand then he pulled me to stand. We threw the empty cups in bin beside us.
“What?” I laughed a bit. “Tell me! We are like bestfriends…”
He smirked sarcastically at me. My eyes widened a bit, surprised on his expression. I am used to his kind smile.
“Rage?” I asked him.
He chuckled then he shook his head. “Let’s just play hide and seek.”
I laughed loudly on his silliness. He is such a child! He tapped me then he ran away from me.
“You’ll be the one to seek for me! Turn around!” he shouted.
I pouted a bit. “I was not ready!”
He just laughed and signaled me to turn my back to him. I rolled my eyes before following him. I counted one to ten out loud while thinking of places here in the park where he might hide.
“Five! Rage don’t you dare go home!” I shouted. I heard his laughter from a far that made me smile.
When I finished counting, I immediately scanned the place. There are huge trees around. I put my palm on my forehead when I realized that we didn't set limitation of the places to hide. The park is too big and wide!
I shook my head then I started walking around. I am silently walking so he wouldn’t be able to run away when he see me coming. But after few minutes, I am already tired. I began shouting his name.
“Rage, I am gonna go home! Get out!” I joked.
I stomped on the ground in tiredness. He is not giving any clue and he is just serious to win!
When I took a step backward, I bumped into someone. I turned my back and Lennox blocked my view. He is staring at me.
“What are you doing here?” I asked.
“Let’s go home,” he uttered calmly.
When I remembered what he is doing since yesterday, I rolled my eyes to him then I ran away. I am in the middle of my big strides when Rage appeared out of nowhere. He surprised me that it made me jump. I stopped running then hit him consecutively on his arm.
“Why did you do that?” I asked in annoyance. I almost had a heart attack.
“You are too slow to find me so…” he arrogantly said then he followed with wholehearted laugh.
A hand suddenly grabbed me. I looked at Lennox who is looking at Rage with a certain emotion on his eyes. Then he glanced at me.
“Let’s go home…” He started dragging me.
“Sweet, are you okay?” I heard Rage’s voice.
I looked back at him then I saw his worried face. I forced a smile then I waved my hand to him. I don’t want to reach the point where Lennox would punch him out of jealousy.
“See you around!” I shouted as I forced my voice to be happy.
He just eyed us seriously as he waved his hand to me.
Silence filled the car in our way to the mansion. As soon as we arrived home, I walked towards my room but Lennox stopped me. I glared on him but he just stared at me.
“Why were you with him?” he asked calmly.
“You shouldn’t care. You’re going to avoid me for the whole day, right?” I said sarcastically. The feelings that I forced to contain are starting to overflow from me. “You’re really good at that, aren’t you? You’re too possessive and selfish. You are supposed to ignore my existence but when you learned that I am with someone else, you came. Because you are seeing me as someone you own. You only think of your own happiness! Now that you saw it, what are you going to do? Punish me?” I burst out.
His eyes turned guilty and gloomy. He reached for me then he hugged me tightly. I closed my eyes and I was about to push him but I stopped myself.
“I’m sorry baby. I am sorry that you felt this way. I am sorry…”
Tears streamed down cheeks. I am just too tired and hurt. His hug tightened.
“I am sorry if I am bad. I am sorry if I am selfish and possessive.” He whispered. “This is the reason why I hated the witches. One of them did this and they refused to help me or even acknowledge that she did something bad to me. A witch ruined me by leaving all the bad side to me…”
“I was not this evil but because I can’t give the love that she’s asking for, she cursed me. She removed the good side in me and left all the evilness. Since she removed it, I had no balance and all I could offer is being vile.”
My lips parted and I looked up to him. The bitterness on his eyes is evident. He forced a smile.
“That is one of the reasons why I loathe them. I was ruined because of them. And you know what?” He clenched his jaw. “My other half is Rage. He is the good one…”
My jaw almost fell. So he means they were one person. Rage and Lennox was one person? And just like humans, we have bad and good side between us. But they were separated.
His hand caressed my cheek as he stared at me intensely.
“And you are the new owner of our heart. This heart,” He gently touched my chest. It beat harder like it knows its owner. “..was ours.”